So last night one of her pregnancy videos was in my recommended, so I watched a couple because I was curious on how much she’d changed. Here’s what I noticed (sorry if this is long):
1. Her obsession with Mabel being tiny began before she was even born! I only watched like 4 “bump dates” and it was insane how many times she talked about how tiny Mabel was going to be. She even only took ‘tiny baby’ clothes to the hospital because she was convinced she was going to be tiny
now I kinda wonder if she was abit disappointed that she was a bigger baby? Or now she looks back on it as another negative part of her labour so she’s now trying to convince herself that she is tiny? Idk, it’s super weird though. I think she spent her whole pregnancy in a fantasy, expecting everything to go a certain way (the birth, how Mabel looked etc) and it all came crashing down when reality hit & she didn’t get what she wanted. This is probably the first time she hasn’t got exactly what she wanted? This is what scares me about some young pregnancies, not the age, but some people not being mature enough to understand that this can happen and to not let yourself fantasise like this, or atleast know how to not let resentment grow against your baby
2. How she is just SO different, even the little things like her tone of voice. She was so much more positive, optimistic and excited, where as now she just seems annoyed, bitchy and unhappy? Does she even like her viewers anymore
(I think it’s partly because of a comment made on here before - she’s constantly trying to prove us wrong) I’m not sure if she even likes YouTube anymore or if she just likes getting paid
before she seemed like such a nice approachable person and now her tone if so negative and annoyed it’s weird. I know PND could be the reason for that, but it’s not great for her career choice :/
3. She used to be SO much smarter & more mature, her head was screwed on. She said she wasn’t moving out until after college to build a foundation for herself, she refused to edit when Mabel was awake so she could bond and stimulate her. What happened!?
the novelty definitely wore off, and fast. It’s almost like because she has to be mature she’s rebelling and decided to act like a child instead
She also used to be a lot more humble and actually appreciated her audience!
4. I definitely miss when she had planned, thought-out videos with an actual purpose! It’s almost like she burned herself out over vlogmas, and instead of taking a break to get through that ‘block’ like most youtubers do, she’s just forced herself to make what she can (these boring af vlogs) to make sure she still gets paid.
Mia just really needs to grow up, stop trying to blindly move out and do everything she can to feel like an adult, accept she’s not ready for that yet and actually look at the problems and try to resolve them. She needs to spend some fun, quality time with Mabel that isn’t just sat in the bedroom or shopping!