This is the crux of it to me and makes me sick to my stomach. Yes, his guilt must bleeping suck, but he still gets to live a life. Those babies didn't get any chance at all and maybe they could have if he did more. It's absolutely heartbreaking. I don't think I could live with myself knowingyou’re a middle aged man who gets to wake up everyday fhese babies probably didn’t live a year between them. They are the victims. It’s not good enough to simply feel guilty