Some bits I can work out are; ‘I don’t deserve mum and dad’ ‘I don’t deserve to live’ ‘all getting too much’ ‘taking over my life’ ‘what does the future hold’ ‘how can I get through it’It says “killing me”
“Them” is part of the next line that says “care for them”
It says in the note about police investigation. So I don’t know if she knew they were investigating before she wrote the note, or if she wrote the note after being arrested the first time.What I think people are glossing over is the fact the note was found on her first arrest. I’m presuming at this point she had no idea she was potentially going to be charged with murder. So why is she writing about killing children?