I'm really conflicted by Kate and Boj. I had absolutely hideous pnd - panic attacks, severe anxiety, couldn't sleep even my son was sleeping, completely overwhelmed by the change in my life and also by the guilt that I couldn't manage. Guilt that I wasn't coping. Guilt that I hadn't taken to motherhood like I 'should'.
I would have snapped a night doula's hand off if I could have afforded it! But then I'd have immediately tried to sleep but not been able to because of guilt.
Part of me thinks Kate is suffering pnd which is truly awful. But then I'm confused because she seems happy enough and doesn't seem to feel guilty when she's out without noa or in bed when the doula is there.
If she has pnd it would explain some of the things I'm seeing but on the other hand, some of the things I'm seeing don't really fit my experience of pnd (I couldn't switch off my anxiety etc when he wasn't there - I felt even more anxious and guilty because I should have been with him being a better mum).
I'm trying not to judge too much because pnd was the most awful time for me and I still feel guilty 17 years later! Maybe she's just better at hiding her feelings..... (trying to give the benefit of the doubt here
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