I'm not a liar. I wish I had the time to sit here and counter every single untrue thing on here that's been said about me, every thing you yourselves have twisted to fit the narrative of me you wish to paint and project. I've been so tempted, so many times.
Like the other day I was tempted to post a photo of the bleeping grey unit that WAS 93kg - it's not the one in the middle of my studio floor, it's the one in the tiny room next door that's twice the size. I have four sideboards in my house, I mean congrats on correctly identifying one of them, but it was the wrong one. Speculation about my income. Speculation about my son, my sons father, my personal life, my exes, my home, my weight, my meds, I could sit here and literally counter every single one of them if I had the time. You have no idea how much self control it's taken not to bowl over here with photos of my labelled ADHD and arthritis meds, doctors letters, prescription photos, payslips, the lot.
Ok, I should stop responding to you, because I genuinely think it's a terrible idea for you to be here. For absolute clarity, I mean for you, not us. However, we all have our weak points and mine is endlessly trying to fix things.
You may be able to do all these things, and show us how wrong we are, but you should absolutely not. You cannot be both a public figure, with a glorious platform (and you are), and completely untouchable and beyond comment/criticism. Being a public figure is going to attract comment. Some of it is going to be negative. Some of that will be potentially ok to you, some of it may seem beyond the pale. Some of it will be downright
crappy. Either way, it shouldn't matter to you. You shouldn't give one tiny
tit what I (a complete nobody to you) or anyone who doesn't personally know you thinks of you, based on how you are projecting yourself on social media. And yet you do, because here you are rolling in what you see as the dirt with us. Please think about what that is saying about how much you rely on other people for validation. I used to do that too, not obviously at your level, because your reach is much wider, but I used to think it was really important what everyone thought about me. That's because I didn't have a sense of self, for complicated and distressing reasons. It's caused me a lot of heartache and a lot of pain. I would, if I was you, go and talk to someone about that.
You have already been given the best advice here anyway, which is to cultivate a public 'Jack Monroe the writer' presence and leave Jack the person safe at home and with friends and family. Do you see other famous people, say Nigella or any public figure doing what you're doing. No, you don't, because it's unhealthy and terrible for you.
You aren't the hardest done by person in this room, or I'm guessing most rooms, though I accept you're going through a
crappy time right now, but lots of us are, it's a tough time. Stop recycling misery and move on.
