"Never leaves you"? What not even when you were living it up with your millionaire girlfriend in a west London home?
Not even when you were spending vast amounts of money in celebrity haunts, on high end clothing, buying ugly but expensive trainers?
Not when you are buying expensive water rowers, expensive unnecessary gym equipment, fridges, crockery, gifts?
Not when you are sharing your home with a successful highly paid Head of Channel 4 News, even after she ceased to be your girlfriend?
Not when you are buying umpteen sideboards and other furniture to cram into every available space?
Not when you are paying a huge rent for a massive four bedroomed two bathroomed home far in excess of the space required for a mum of one?
Not when you are going on your (never been on) holidays, jaunting up and down the country on expensive overnight sleeper trains, staying in expensive hotels and eating in (not a chain) restaurants?
People that have had a child die, that never leaves them. People that see a loved one die, that never leaves them. People that have endured and escaped from war, that never leaves them. People that have experienced any number of unspeakable abuses, that never leaves them. People that have been imprisoned because of their politcal views, sexuality, or religious beliefs, that never leaves them.
Having a brief period in relative poverty doesn't have to define you for the rest of your life. Yes, it will change your views, and hopefully make you more empathetic. Yes it should make you aware of what others can and do go through, and have more compassion.
It should make you a better person, not turn you into someone who will forever make personal gain from emotionally blackmailing people on SM for financial gain. You are no different from those that beg on the high street.
Get a grip, you self absorbed emotional vampire.
Sorry for the long post, but I've got one on me today. 
