I have a kinda related but unrelated answer sorry
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I just wanted some advice.
Been with my partner five years (I’m 21) sex has just like left (purely my choice), but he still asks for it multiple times a day. - These days it’s like once a month, but honestly I could never do it again and I wouldn’t notice (even though I think/fantasise about it practically constantly lol)
At the start sex was constant after we lost our virginity to each other, maybe 4 or 5 times a day whenever we’d see each other. I’m just not interested anymore. I still think about sex constantly and fantasise, but it just never really involves him (I hate myself ik).
I just didn’t know if maybe I’m asexual, maybe my hormones are wacky, maybe we’re just not compatible (I love him but I do hold resentment for him for a lot of reasons), or maybe it’s because we’ve only been with each other and humans just naturally try to think about the grass being greener.
If anyone did have advice or perspective I’d really appreciate it. It’s been 5 years and I really don’t want to break mine and anyone else’s heart and lose my like best and in some ways only friend. But I also can’t survive like this and keep hoping that it’ll randomly make sense one day.