You should be very proud of yourself and your personal growth over the years. You sound like an amazing person and an amazing mother! Go you!!!
Just on an aside, based on the thread title, there's a woman on Instagram called Jenny Keane who posts about and does workshops on sex. She often speaks about self pleasure and she is a powerful woman. Would recommend! ETA searchjudging by how much you've grown and learned about yourself over the course of your relationship, I think you would really benefit from it and come away feeling so empowered
Oh thank you so much
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for such a beautiful and understanding post. That means a lot to me, because apart from on here, I keep myself to myself and tbh don't get much positive feedback or helpful suggestions from people in my daily life.. So I really appreciate your post, and all the other lovely people who have given me a positive reaction, or just took the time to read it.
I might even, bookmark the post for future reference, when I need a reminder, that yes actually I've come a long way, and it's been painful, but ultimately rewarding, and that it's ok to express or share that, people will understand, (I've had trust issues in the past, but I'm a lot more open than I used to be)
I will look up Jenny Keane, thanks for suggesting that,she sounds right up my street, years ago I read The art of sexual ecstasy by Margot Anand amongst others, and also (for a brief period) followed the Orgasmic diet, (book by Marrena Lindberg).
So I'm fortunate in that I've been aware of and introduced to the concepts of tantric sex and self pleasure,and orgasmic potential, to be used in a empowering sense.
I think something from that must have registered in my mind, and body, maybe to prepare me for the rocky road ahead!
It is liberating to get in touch with that power, I literally could go it alone, and follow my own path, and I wouldn't be missing anything.
In fact, I'd be happy because for the first time in what feels like forever someone else doesn't define or control me, and now I'm free to actually relax and enjoy myself.(in whatever form that takes)
Took me ages to get to this point, but I'm determined to make the most of it.
So thank you for your words of encouragement,
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i am very grateful.