Since I had to finish watching might as well do a recap, lazy Sunday over here
- slow-ish B roll scenes in the morning are still a thing
- she's hosting Christmas dinner this year, explained that the family found Christmas last year quite difficult, without her dad, so they want to make new traditions, and she's excited about hosting it this year for the family.
- Foreo #ad
- she showed off the girl of snooze fleece sweater and the leggings, considering how it folded whilst she moved and how the leggings look I don't think she's pregnant
- cats cameo, tilly is truly annoyed by teddy like 24/7 i feel XD, i enjoyed seeing more of them
- she found a radio her mom gifted her that plays Mellow Magic, to be honest i liked her grooving to the music a LOT whilst doing laundry, it was a flashback to her playlist in the car jamming back in the day.
- a picky lunch
- Christmas is on her brain, of course, and she has no idea what to do with her theme... ( this surprised me, if there's one thing that she was always consistent with is her christmas vibe, and what she wanted, she always had an early idea what she would like and now she doesn't know ). A part of her wants to do everything neutral and farmhouse vibe that " goes with the furniture and the house " , but a part of her wants red green gold candycane traditional. She feels her at her mum's it's always more christmassy than elsewhere. ( This is the problem when you curate a house and everything in it based on pintrest and other influenza's homes... and it's not something you actually like or want. She should do whatever the hell she likes and not be concerned if it goes with the bloody house or look good on insta. If you can't make it look good then maybe the house is not the problem >> ) She def wants it traditional when they have children.
- this caused a ramble about social media, and how it causes to strive for perfection when perfection doesn't exist.
" at the moment I'm having a bit of imposter syndrome, where i think that everything i film is rubbish "
" i find i fall into this negative mindset " ( which she tries to force her way out of all the time )
" sometimes with this job is really hard to believe in yourself and believe in your content and do what you wanna do and live your life how you wanna live your life when its constantly criticized by others" ( which she hasn't done in ages but ok )
" the longer I've don youtube, the more it's taken a little bit of me away "
" i remember when i first stated 4 years ago i put everything that i wanted online, and i didn't care what anyone thought of me, and now i feel so far away from that now, some days i'm questioning now who i am , i feel a little bit lost sometimes " ( that's what we've been saying?? do you, do whatever you like and not what you think is expected or ~ aesthetic ~ ?? )
" i feel like the past year, year and a bit, ive been so cautious and careful, with what i put online, that, the more i overthink it, the less ME my videos are" ( well, yes )
- Apple cinnamon loaf cake, she added more apple, and it got partially stuck ( i enjoyed that also, flaws and all, at least it genuine and what can happen to anyone ).
- B- roll scenes of the indoor autumn market ( i believe this was the farmer's market they visit regularly )
- hello fresh dinner ( jamie is slaving away at girl of snooze HQ )
- they have taken down the autumn porch deco already, she thinks she put it up too early ( no wayyyy
) they donated everything to a children's farmer and a school.
That's about it I guess.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: she needs to remove pintrest from her phone, get some decent and comforting counseling or therapy to deal with her dad's passing and her horrible self image and insecurities and stop living a life that's not hers. Her content and her brain would benefit from that.
So disappointing and hardly made for her following/audience in mind AT ALL!
