@Begborrowsteal - it sounds like a brilliant opportunity for you, but absolutely with you on the 'change is scary' front. Do the second interview, see how you feel after, and after all, not a prison sentence, if you start it and it doesn't work for you, then you can always walk away. I suspect, though, if you go for it, you'll find it a way to regain a bit of yourself.
Thank you all so much for thinking of me and all the lovely supportive posts. He's gone very quiet again, but I am refusing to worry so much this time, because I get that he needs to rest and just drift, and it's not his job to support me right now, so am just getting on with things. Sorry, too tired to go back and check names, but for those who asked, yep, daughter is all the teenage at the moment, so I know it's to be expected, but I don't know, hit me in the gut I guess.
There were other things I wanted to comment on, but completely lost track of them all. Can I give general love to everyone instead please?
I've also just had a bowl of marmite pasta, you know, just to be on topic. A nutritional step up from biscuits at any rate.