So many of your posts that I see, I could have wrote myself. I split up with my long term partner in 2018, not through lack of love but we just wanted different things at different times in our lives but other than that we were really well suited. When I'm on dating sites, I see someone who is attractive but then I think could I REALLY be as close, comfortable and in love with you as I was with **** and I just can't see it. Which is ridiculous because you never know who you will fall for. But I just can't stop that trail of thoughtI definitely feel like I’m allowing myself to settle because I honestly don’t think I’ll find anyone on an app I will click with. I don’t hold myself in any kind of light or think I’m better than these men by the way, I’m just fussy and particular. Breaking up with my long term bf really messed me up and it’s only really taken me until now, 3 years later to get over him. It actually freak me out to imagine having that closeness with anyone else, tbh. Probably why I’m so half arsed when it comes to chatting on apps cos I have a barrier and have only have flings since I broke up with my ex.
At least you’ve been putting yourself out there! I went on a walking date in November and he was only interested in having some fun and nothing serious! His words!!