Yeah I think you’re right. I understand having first time nerves meeting someone but there’s not even like any excitement there? I’m not like aw I really like him! Previously I would’ve looked past like the height thing, or the driving thing but now I’m like these are really important it to me because it means there’s a equal ness from the get go already!Then focus on those things and forget the dating. I would say as well, focus on a new hobby maybe? I would say give yourself some challenges as well. I love to push myself so this might be weird for people but I will be like "ok starting tomorrow no fizzy drinks for 21 days" and just see how I go. I think it's good to see that you can achieve things you set your mind to. I did it with social media about a year ago and I never re-downloaded it cause I enjoyed that 3 weeks so much. Gives you something to focus on. It could be anything, waking up early, going for a daily walk, no sugar, no phone, reading before bed, knitting, dancing. Literally can be anything you fancy doing.
Also this is cringe but I always live by "having a full enough life that when people leave they don't take away from it" so I focus 100% on myself and anyone that comes in and out of my life gets checked at the door. Are you adding to my life positively? yes. That's great but my life is still so full that even if you leave it, I'll be fine.
I LOVE that! I love setting myself little challenges and love that motto! I think it’s clear I’m not ready for dating and I’m not in the right frame of mind to meet someone and be vulnerable and there’s clearly other things I want to focus on xx