Tw: suicide mention.
This is a tricky subject for me. On one hand, I find the thought of dying from old age, with loved one(s) nearby comforting, and growing old isn't a nightmare for everyone. The finality of death is still scary to me, even when my depression was at its worst, I didn't really want to die, I just wanted out, to be not-me. So, arranging a way to "go" sounds like it would be my last resort, provided that I could afford it of course. On the other hand, I find the dependency, the frailty and increasing needs that come with old age quite frightening. This is why I kind of get people who have children to be not alone when they are old. Obviously it's not guaranteed and they could turn out to be completely indifferent, but the thought of having someone out there who will keep an eye out could easily be comforting. Care homes can be hit or miss and I sometimes wonder whether people actually would care about me if they had no family members to answer to.
Bit morbid for a Wednesday night but hey.