Thank duck for this space, where I feel I can say my thoughts and not be cast out as the evil one.
My brother lives abroad and has had a bairn. Whenever my mum and dad come to see me, there is a video call with said brother. The bairn is doing whatever children do. Cue my mum and dad screeching into the tablet "aww kids name". "aww look at him" "kids name,
Hello, hello, some more screeching of kids name" etc etc
I cannot, and will not look at a child and screech their name into a screen. I find it boring and pointless. To the point where my parents were concerned these was something wrong with me. But why am I the issue when they are yelling into the abyss for a child that doesn't care as he is too busy doing whatever kids do.
My parents know I don't want children, I'm not good with children. Hell I find being with my nephew really hard work. And I feel terrible for saying this, but thanks for this safe space. I don't want to spend my limited holiday time travelling across the world to spend time with a small child, and being held hostage to whatever mood they are in that day which dictates what we can do, when I'd rather be selfish and go on holiday where myself and my partner want to go and do the things we want to do. Ie with no small children around.