Thanks to reading here, its finally persuaded me to get back on Nutracheck and start adding all my food, and for me to do exercise again!! (I was already signed up and did use it but i gave up about 2 weeks before christmas!)
Anyway, im a little bit fucked up, not gonna lie. I have a range of mental health issues which unfortunately includes my relationship with food, my body dysmorphia and general issues regarding having a certain image/dress size in my head. I have always been slim, but i was sectioned in June and diagnosed with BPD, and prescribed Mirtazapine and escipilitram. So from June to Sep i managed to put on almost 2stone. And although i felt disgusting and fat, and i was upset because it was the biggest ive ever been... at 10 stone (yes i know, hardly massive! but it felt like the end of the world for me). I think the fact i wasnt poisoning myself with class A drugs made me put on weight (which im thankful im no longer taking class A drugs). I honestly dont know what i weigh now because its not good for me to weigh myself as it impacts massively on my mental health. But i seem to have this idea that unless im 8 stone or 8 and a half stone then im automatically 'massive'. And honestly, i was heartbroken that my size 8 were too tight. But thats my own distorted view, and my really fucked issues coming out.
So back to now, im trying to be healthy, im not weighing myself but going by how my clothes fit. Im trying not to get obsessed with it, but im just trying to be mindful. And Nutracheck is perfect for me because it just helpes me to become more aware of what im eating, plus it gives me something to focus on.
I dont think i will ever be someone who loses 7ib in a week. My medication is a bastard in the sense it makes people feel so hungry, so ive had to deal with that. And my gp basically told me to man up and accept the weight gain even though it is something that has a massive impact on my mental health!
I love reading what everyone is eating, plus all the weight you are all losing... The only thing i can contribute is im obsessed with sugar snap peas and i eat packets and packets of them as snacks. I eat them like the way i would eat crisps or biscuits. Also i bulk out my meals with plenty of veg or salad. xx
Anyway, im a little bit fucked up, not gonna lie. I have a range of mental health issues which unfortunately includes my relationship with food, my body dysmorphia and general issues regarding having a certain image/dress size in my head. I have always been slim, but i was sectioned in June and diagnosed with BPD, and prescribed Mirtazapine and escipilitram. So from June to Sep i managed to put on almost 2stone. And although i felt disgusting and fat, and i was upset because it was the biggest ive ever been... at 10 stone (yes i know, hardly massive! but it felt like the end of the world for me). I think the fact i wasnt poisoning myself with class A drugs made me put on weight (which im thankful im no longer taking class A drugs). I honestly dont know what i weigh now because its not good for me to weigh myself as it impacts massively on my mental health. But i seem to have this idea that unless im 8 stone or 8 and a half stone then im automatically 'massive'. And honestly, i was heartbroken that my size 8 were too tight. But thats my own distorted view, and my really fucked issues coming out.
So back to now, im trying to be healthy, im not weighing myself but going by how my clothes fit. Im trying not to get obsessed with it, but im just trying to be mindful. And Nutracheck is perfect for me because it just helpes me to become more aware of what im eating, plus it gives me something to focus on.
I dont think i will ever be someone who loses 7ib in a week. My medication is a bastard in the sense it makes people feel so hungry, so ive had to deal with that. And my gp basically told me to man up and accept the weight gain even though it is something that has a massive impact on my mental health!
I love reading what everyone is eating, plus all the weight you are all losing... The only thing i can contribute is im obsessed with sugar snap peas and i eat packets and packets of them as snacks. I eat them like the way i would eat crisps or biscuits. Also i bulk out my meals with plenty of veg or salad. xx
I think this is the first major challenged I’ve faced since I started my weightloss. Today will take some serious willpower if I’m to eat bloody fruit when I’m an emotional mess
so relieved 
Good luck all and if you're taking tonight off, ENJOY THE HECK OUT OF IT!
I can’t believe I’ve made it to the end of the month which was never happened before, it’s feels surreal at the beginning of January I felt so unfit and generally unhealthy it was ruining my relationships with people but especially my daughter I never want her to hear the words ‘fat’ ect that’s all I felt, something needed to change!
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have been predominantly concerned about my fitness and physical changes to my body, so I’m trying not to get too preoccupied with the numbers.
Keep going, everyone!
Hope everyone enjoys the weekend!
This time using NutraCheck!
