That`s never silly.It`s hard enough losing a husband and father ,and miscarrying late but nobody should know the pain of losing their child.Sending much love to you ,you have more strength than i could ever imagine.xxxTo both of you I send love and light. I lost my beautiful son 9 years ago when he was 15 and I have hated NYE ever since. I hate starting another NY that he will never know. Sounds silly I know. Wishing you the best for 2022 xx