RonnieBlessHim
VIP Member
I'm so depressed right now. Infertility, grief and trauma are kicking my arse. Sorry to post out of the blue
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newaccount2022
Chatty Member
Sometimes I think the pain of loneliness will kill me. Most days I can barely breathe.
pusheencat00
New member
Really struggling today. Without going into too much detail (I don’t want to post anything identifying on here), since the summer, I’ve just had bad things after bad things. Financial issues, car being unrepairable, being a victim of crime (I’m ‘ok’), among other things.
it all came to a head today and I phoned NHS 24 (unheard of for me, I don’t ask for help
).They were actually quite helpful and have referred me to what’s kind of sounds similar to a crisis team who can support me for 2 weeks. I’m v grateful.
it’s just been one thing after another and I am burned out, exhausted and feeling so hopeless.
sending hugs to anyone who needs one today, god knows I do.
it all came to a head today and I phoned NHS 24 (unheard of for me, I don’t ask for help
).They were actually quite helpful and have referred me to what’s kind of sounds similar to a crisis team who can support me for 2 weeks. I’m v grateful.it’s just been one thing after another and I am burned out, exhausted and feeling so hopeless.
sending hugs to anyone who needs one today, god knows I do.
newaccount2022
Chatty Member
Thinking of everyone today, tried to post on my lunch break at work but got interrupted.
Seems like it’s a stressful/low week for a lot of us, for different reasons. im glad to have this thread, it’s like catching up with a few friends in the evenings. I collected my anti-d’s from the chemist, giving it another 6 months on the Sertaline (100mg). Being new at work has been nerve wracking but luckily everyone has been very kind. I am diagnosed with OCD as well and hoping not to have a bad flare during my training period.
Seems like it’s a stressful/low week for a lot of us, for different reasons. im glad to have this thread, it’s like catching up with a few friends in the evenings. I collected my anti-d’s from the chemist, giving it another 6 months on the Sertaline (100mg). Being new at work has been nerve wracking but luckily everyone has been very kind. I am diagnosed with OCD as well and hoping not to have a bad flare during my training period.
newaccount2022
Chatty Member
Oh absolutely possible.. I think you’ll find a lot of us here function ‘as normal’, go to work, get stuff done around the house, visit family… depression can be such a secret illness. I could be in the deepest pit when I wake up in the morning and not see the point in living at all but as soon as someone speaks to me in the office I’m all smiles. It’s a switch I can’t help.Hello to allMust admit, this is my first time visiting this thread but I just had a quick question.
I'm no great expert in regards to depression, but I wondered, is it possible for a person to function pretty much as 'normal' on a regular basis but be suffering with a kind of chronic low-grade/mild depression? And this would be very much a situational depression that's gone on for years.
I wondered if this is something that is a thing and if anyone has had any experience or any opinions?
Hope you are looking after yourself
Pollyanna263
VIP Member
Just had therapy and told her I feel sad and wish I could cry.
I’m not very good at naming my emotions so this was a big deal.
Have psych review this afternoon too.
Honestly feel totally hopeless at the moment. Not as in I’m going to end things but just that I don’t know how I’ll ever be ‘me’ again.
I’m not very good at naming my emotions so this was a big deal.
Have psych review this afternoon too.
Honestly feel totally hopeless at the moment. Not as in I’m going to end things but just that I don’t know how I’ll ever be ‘me’ again.
Good Egg
VIP Member
Can I offload here for a bit?
No rhyme or reason - just feeling overwhelm on every level. I feel like everything is testing me at the moment and I’m losing my rag at every little thing. Things are not going to plan. Kids are not listening. Rinse repeat. I’m fed up of arguing - I’m tired and this isn’t me. I don’t like who I am or what life is.
I feel like my memory is not very good. Like immediately after I’ve done something I doubt myself and wonder did I do that thing or not?
I’m tired. I struggle to get out of bed (mentioned this before). Everything is a struggle.
Such a doom and gloom post - I wonder if I was to walk away from it all, if Theyd even notice I was gone. I feel like I have a negative impact on everyone and I can’t shake the feeling
No rhyme or reason - just feeling overwhelm on every level. I feel like everything is testing me at the moment and I’m losing my rag at every little thing. Things are not going to plan. Kids are not listening. Rinse repeat. I’m fed up of arguing - I’m tired and this isn’t me. I don’t like who I am or what life is.
I feel like my memory is not very good. Like immediately after I’ve done something I doubt myself and wonder did I do that thing or not?
I’m tired. I struggle to get out of bed (mentioned this before). Everything is a struggle.
Such a doom and gloom post - I wonder if I was to walk away from it all, if Theyd even notice I was gone. I feel like I have a negative impact on everyone and I can’t shake the feeling
Into_the_tunnel
VIP Member
I’m not going to change your mind on this in one post. But is there anything you can do in the immediate term to improve this feeling?
Can you phone 111 or the Samaritans? Do you have time to phone your dr later to try to arrange an appointment?
Can you think of anything specific that has triggered this feeling, is it a build up of lots of things? Can any of them be dealt with to ease your load?
Finally, try and divide the day into little chunks. Try and do one thing in each chunk. Get up. Have a cup of tea or coffee. Have a shower if you can. Get back to us.
Fanny Muchmore
VIP Member
I went to sound healing today and it was SO wonderful. Really helped me.
Big hugs to everyone in this thread
Big hugs to everyone in this thread
newaccount2022
Chatty Member
Didn’t get out of bed today, just felt so numb. Didn’t put on the tv, didn’t watch TikToks, just lay in bed and slept from 11am-5pm even though I had a full nights sleep last night. I feel like sleep is my only escape, I never feel well rested or energized but at least when I’m asleep I don’t have to think. When I come home from work during the week I have to fight with myself to not just go to bed at 7pm.
Going to sleep again now and try enjoy tomorrow.. I’m determined to get up and do a self care shower
Going to sleep again now and try enjoy tomorrow.. I’m determined to get up and do a self care shower
boobear191
Well-known member
How would you explain to a receptionist at your doctors when they ask what’s the issue etc that you’re concerned about your mental health? I know it sounds really stupid but that’s the one major thing that’s putting me off ringing them because our receptionists aren’t that nice, but I really feel like I’m on the verge of a huge breakdown
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my dad has recently been diagnosed with oesophageal cancer & we find out the stage of it Monday coming up & last year my mum had a cancer scare, she had a melanoma a few years back, they got rid of it but she took a huge turn for the worst last year I was honestly worried of waking up and her not being here for how unwell she was, we’ve been having problems with one of our neighbours that’s causing stress and fear quite a lot (aggression aggressive behaviour, intimidation & stuff like that) along with this I’ve been having so much pain with my stomach & I know there’s something not right, my entire body aches every day (I’m 20 I don’t think it’s normal) sometimes I fall/legs just give way, my hair is falling out in huge clumps & every day I’m having these horrific head pains / migraines that are so bad I hate being here & having all this weight on me, so it feels like. I’m on fluoxetine 20mg & propranolol for anxiety and them little pink pills have saved me so many times but I’m having to take them way more often due to anxiety and my heart racing off it’s scary, my hands shake so so bad I don’t know why but I think I’ve got a tremor but feel like doctors won’t believe me but when I’ve been in hospitals etc waiting forresults a lot of the professionals picked up on how extreme my hands were shaking uncontrollably.
I’m hardly sleeping well which seems to be a ongoing thing but if I do manage to sleep it’s for a long time & I still wake up feeling ‘worn out’ I’m struggling even taking care of myself I couldn’t tell you the last time I brushed my hair and it’s been about two weeks since I even brushed my teeth which isn’t nice to read but I’m really struggling lately & I don’t know what to do
I’m more bloody scared of ringing my doctor to have to try and explain what the issue is to the receptionist because I get anxious I end up sort of stalling and not making sense at all. I’m randomly crying all the time, I have no idea why. I’m even crying right now. I can just be sat quiet, and the next minute I’m in absolute tears & Idon’t know why. I just feel so lost at the moment & there’s so much pressure in my head (I’ve been having this & pain in my head for 2/3 months, had a brain mri done and everything seemed okay) I feel like my heads going to explode every single day. I’m feeling so nauseas & sometimes even throwing up multiple times a week & have no idea why. I tried speaking to the doctor about it, they gave me some sickness tablets and that was that really.. then they wanted to do a review of why I’m even on them & im so scared of them taking me off them because of how bad the sickness I get is & nausea, they help me so much but I know something isn’t right with me but I don’t know how I push to get help.
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Cancer
I’m hardly sleeping well which seems to be a ongoing thing but if I do manage to sleep it’s for a long time & I still wake up feeling ‘worn out’ I’m struggling even taking care of myself I couldn’t tell you the last time I brushed my hair and it’s been about two weeks since I even brushed my teeth which isn’t nice to read but I’m really struggling lately & I don’t know what to do
I’m more bloody scared of ringing my doctor to have to try and explain what the issue is to the receptionist because I get anxious I end up sort of stalling and not making sense at all. I’m randomly crying all the time, I have no idea why. I’m even crying right now. I can just be sat quiet, and the next minute I’m in absolute tears & Idon’t know why. I just feel so lost at the moment & there’s so much pressure in my head (I’ve been having this & pain in my head for 2/3 months, had a brain mri done and everything seemed okay) I feel like my heads going to explode every single day. I’m feeling so nauseas & sometimes even throwing up multiple times a week & have no idea why. I tried speaking to the doctor about it, they gave me some sickness tablets and that was that really.. then they wanted to do a review of why I’m even on them & im so scared of them taking me off them because of how bad the sickness I get is & nausea, they help me so much but I know something isn’t right with me but I don’t know how I push to get help.
Pollyanna263
VIP Member
This is your morning reminder to brush your teeth, wash your face, drink a glass of water (or squash)
Hope everyone is hanging in there
Hope everyone is hanging in there
I hate August, this is the absolute worse month for me where so much bad shit has happened (over the years)
I'm trying really hard to not dwell on stuff, trying to be 'normal', but inside, I'm really struggling, there's a real bad anniversary coming up, I won't say cos I don't know how to do a spoiler, let's just say the word s and my only sibling who I thought the world of
I'm trying really hard to not dwell on stuff, trying to be 'normal', but inside, I'm really struggling, there's a real bad anniversary coming up, I won't say cos I don't know how to do a spoiler, let's just say the word s and my only sibling who I thought the world of
Bubbledoggyyeah
Chatty Member
I wanted to share this somewhere and this thread feels like the place.
The last 7 weeks I have fallen into a deep depression. This happens at points in my life, and I’m terrible at reaching out to anyone, so I haven’t. I have had people notice I’m not okay and I’ve cried at work which was embarrassing but still didn’t open up. Anyways, because I’ve been feeling so awful I haven’t been taking care of myself. I’ve been living off coffee and junk food - lost almost a stone in weight as I’m eating like a sausage roll a day. But! Tonight I cooked myself a proper dinner. I really didn’t want to, even as I was cooking it I felt sick, but I did it, I ate it, and I’m so happy knowing I have veg and fish in my stomach. A tiny step in the right direction. Maybe tomorrow I’ll call the drs about meds…
The last 7 weeks I have fallen into a deep depression. This happens at points in my life, and I’m terrible at reaching out to anyone, so I haven’t. I have had people notice I’m not okay and I’ve cried at work which was embarrassing but still didn’t open up. Anyways, because I’ve been feeling so awful I haven’t been taking care of myself. I’ve been living off coffee and junk food - lost almost a stone in weight as I’m eating like a sausage roll a day. But! Tonight I cooked myself a proper dinner. I really didn’t want to, even as I was cooking it I felt sick, but I did it, I ate it, and I’m so happy knowing I have veg and fish in my stomach. A tiny step in the right direction. Maybe tomorrow I’ll call the drs about meds…
Phil McCrackin
Member
Hi guys I’m sorry for posting on here you seem to all know each other and I’m sorry if you would prefer me to post elsewhere. I know I am going to end things soon and I feel like I am too scared to jump or OD incase I wake up. The other alternative: I’m not sure how to do it. I am worried I will do it wrong. Anyway I’m not sure why I’m writing this but i can’t find anything online for tips on how to be successful. Xx
newaccount2022
Chatty Member
So done with trying to build relationships at work. I was chatting to a girl last week about treating myself to a certain beauty product and how much I wanted it. It’s expensive. She got me to Google it and show her etc.
Logged into morning meeting today and there’s always chatting for a few mins before we start, someone joked it was ‘Christmas 1st’ and since we got paid today we better treat ourselves, someone said ‘oh XXX like herself’ (the brand name of the product I want) and a few of them laughed including the girl I had spoken to about the product. Then the girl who made the comment obviously realised I was in the meeting and quietly said ‘oh’ before snorting with laughter and changing the subject.
sounds like a stupid thing now that I read back but I felt so small.
Logged into morning meeting today and there’s always chatting for a few mins before we start, someone joked it was ‘Christmas 1st’ and since we got paid today we better treat ourselves, someone said ‘oh XXX like herself’ (the brand name of the product I want) and a few of them laughed including the girl I had spoken to about the product. Then the girl who made the comment obviously realised I was in the meeting and quietly said ‘oh’ before snorting with laughter and changing the subject.
sounds like a stupid thing now that I read back but I felt so small.
Agent Cooper
Chatty Member
I’ve spent the whole day today feeling funny, I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I feel like something bad is about to happen. Can’t tell if it’s my gut feeling or my illness. Really feel like crying too, I think I will try to go to sleep and hope for a better day tomorrow.
Sending much love to all the people on this thread x
Sending much love to all the people on this thread x
I know what it feels like, I have this problem too! I hope you are okay, wishing you a good night’s sleep and a non-stressful day at work tomorrow 🤍
* sweet but salty *
New member
I’m new here and just reading through the forums, I suffer with depression and anxiety and recently diagnosed with cptsd so can relate to a lot on the thread but reading through this is heartbreaking at the same time - hate to think of others suffering so much - mental health issues are awful. You’re a strong bunch to be able to open up on here and I really hope you’re able to find a way of getting out of the black hole and seeing some happiness in life! Xx
Pollyanna263
VIP Member
Can someone please reassure me that it’s not just me who has times when you don’t know when you last showered. Washed your hair. Brushed your hair. Washed your face.