In my opinion it was easier for her to be the cute pregnant person with zero responsibilities and a lot of praise and attention, than it is to be the tired and healing wounded mother who is up half the night and reeling from a shocking birth. I don’t think she expected an actual human child that cries, needs feeding, nappies changed, might have reflux and any amount of other things that infants can go through. She loved being a skinny pregnant girl. The reality of being a mother and all of the harsh realities? I’m not that convinced.