I'm about to REALLY ramble, warning!
She really pisses me off, and not because of any political stance she's taking, but rather the fact she's always been someone who appears to let everything eat at her. Just watched a video about all the symbolism placed in the latest video and like all the others, there are things people are sure are meant to be digs at all the people who have wronged her or called her out. Kanye, Kim, Katy, Beyonce, being compared to Adele... ffs, why does it have to keep being brought up even in the form of subliminal digs? She wasn't able to let the boyfriends or what they did go and she can't let any sort of shade being thrown her way just slide off. She acts like she makes peace with it but then continues to dwell on it for years and dedicate pieces of music vids to them. It seems childish, and I feel like she likes, in some way, to be a victim of something. I do understand though that because she's SO famous and never had a public breakdown or anything like it that this is probably her way of getting out things she wants to say without bluntly doing it. But it doesn't seem like the most healthy thing..
That's one of the things that I've not understood about her for a while now and this has just pushed me over the edge. I've been seeing her as a person who's two faced, and a lot of the guys who have dated her have pretty much confirmed that. The video also said that ( and I don't keep up with her on a regular basis, so apologize if this has already been mentioned) that certain people claim they didn't like her, like Lady Gaga, until they met her and they were just "won over". Everyone who's around her treats her like a queen and is smitten, and I just don't get it.
I think the girl has a good sense of humor and is self deprecating, but I get really tiffed about it because I think it's a facade. I think she knows what to play up to make herself seem the best in any situation and knows how to endear herself to people. I hope I'm making sense, like I hope she's not just using this though I have agreed with a few others here that I think she is part of the community. But however she identifies, I'm liking less and less the person she is because I feel like she's phony.
I hope I haven't upset anybody here but these are just my personal opinions and they've come to a head as I've been questioning a lot of the things she's been doing for a couple years at least but kept getting dragged into thinking she was sweet and great because some of the most decent people I know are massive fans of her and thought " guess they're on to something". But something's just not sitting right with me.