The self awareness of a cola Calippo stop itIt feels a little tense because unlike before when he's been able to talk his way out of his own bullshit (mostly) and move on, this current drama affects his current 'career' (17 minutes!) And future career ("when I go back to care"). I think he's realised he's fucked up here but I can imagine he's also lying in bed with no energy wondering why, because he has the self awareness of a cola Calippo.