I think Jodie is really struggling, as a mother of 4 grown up children I really feel for her. I had what I call 3 perfect babies that were so easy, hardly any sleepless nights and just fitted in from the moment they arrived, you’d never know that I’d just had a baby as the house was so tidy. The 4th was a total shock to my system, she cried from the moment she was born, allergic to everything, never slept a full night until she was 6/7 years of age. I think when she said it wasn’t worth it, I don’t actually think that is her talking, I’m no professional but I think she may have PND, I truly loved my youngest but felt I didn’t like her, but looking back now it’s because I didn’t know how to ask for help as I felt like a failure having had 3 babies before her. It’s possible that she feels the same being a midwife and wanting to do what’s best for little Dusty and that is the reason for putting so much pressure on herself, and she will also be worried about her father who is unwell at the moment and seems to have a great bond with.