Like many other women, I've suffered from disordered eating and at my thinnest I was overexercising, undereating, but feeling "fat".
Since having my little girl (now nine months), I have desperately wanted to get over my eating issues. I gained about 15 kg during my pregnancy and was slow to lose it. In fact, the reason why I lost the baby weight in the end was because my daughter needed surgery and had additional care needs for some weeks. With the stress of all of that - I stopped eating. I lost weight. I tried not to celebrate that. I keep telling myself that I'm over my body issues and to a large extent I am. I know now that my weight loss came during the worst few weeks of my life. I was not healthy. It was a sign of stress and sadness. I want to role model how I want my daughter to feel about her body one day - to eat to nourish her body and soul, to move because it feels good, to know that her looks and body are the least interesting things about her. I want to do better for her.
But then this witch posts those stories, and I instantly feel like crap. It is so irresponsible and uncaring and bleeping fake, as we all know. She is unhealthy, she is as disordered as hell, she is manipulating her body and using good lighting to achieve that effect. I KNOW all of this, and yet I still have to consciously stop beating myself up. Because that is how insidious diet culture is. Particularly for those of us who grew up in the 90s/00s.
And like others have posted - she is actively projecting a manipulated post-pregnancy slim toned body, while saying it doesn't matter. She knows exactly what she is doing. She is the bleeping worst and I hate that I contribute to her views and give her attention.
I feel like I need to take a break for my own mental health, but I also want others who might feel the same way to know they are not alone.
And repeat as a mantra - she is a terrible mother, wife, friend, human. Her life is as empty as her soul and stomach. One day her children will dislike her, and her husband already does. She is alone in all the ways that matter. But, I guess she's thin? That's not the life any sane person wants.