Hi everyone! I want to join in
I’m 22, originally from
but living in Sardinia
for 4 years now.
I first found Sarah around 2017, whilst I was in a really dark place. I had just ran away from home, 2 weeks after my 17th birthday - I grew up in an extremely unhealthy home with a lot of domestic, emotional and sexual abuse where my every move was controlled and having just managed to escape, I was experiencing for the first time what it was like to be able to make decisions for myself. I could choose everything for the first time in my life and was trying to build an image of what a “good life” should look like. I was suffering with PTSD, anxiety and depression, added to struggles with eating disorders since I was around 8 or 9 years old. All of this to say, I now recognise that at that time I was in a vulnerable place and extremely open and receptive to positive-seeming role models like Sarah, as a ‘guide for a good life’ kind of way. She was successful, healthy, fit, funny, warm and always doing new and different things and coming out with exciting projects. She seemed the epitome of what I wanted for the new life I was trying to create for myself.
I quickly became a fan of hers, and that continued to a peak around the time she was pregnant with Fox. I’m ashamed to say I had notifications turned on for everything she posted, even her Insta stories
it makes me cringe so much now. I was so jealous of her life. It seemed she had everything I wanted so badly, the beautiful house, the great job, the perfect family, enough money to not be able to worry all the time, an amazing body and being perfectly in tune with her body all the time.
Her way of talking about food and exercise was a big trigger for me - with my experience with ED I have never had a healthy relationship with food/exercise and what she describes she does is so, so far from what I experience. I felt disgusting for not having the willpower to just be more like Sarah and eat a salad instead of a bowl of pasta. I felt hideous for my binges (not the kind of binge on fruit and nut mix that Sarah talks about feeling so guilty for..) and that lead me to want to hide it even more, making the whole vicious cycle worse. I felt like it was my fault that I couldn’t try hard enough to just do the same things Sarah did.
Not only her relationship with health, but also her and Kurt’s attitude to work and “hustle”. I used to listen to the Health Code (the long-form one) obsessively, and I can really remember just how incredibly lazy and “unmotivated” they made me feel. They go on about the “hustle” life, about always pushing yourself to do more and that everyone should have a side-hustle and that if you don’t like where you are then it’s on you to change things (and whilst I can understand this point of view, it’s really often not that simple especially for people coming from poorer communities, POC, and people like me who have zero support network to rely on). Hearing all this whilst I was on an extremely low wage, doing a job that was really stressful, working 40 hours a week whilst trying to also study to pass my exams, and in the midst of a massive depressive spell; it made me feel so worthless, that what I was doing wasn’t anywhere near enough and that if only I had a bit more energy and willpower, I could turn my life around just like Sarah and Kurt had done. If only I could just try harder, get myself a freaking “side-hustle”, I could have everything that they had - but it was just myself and my “laziness” that was stopping me.
The first thing that started to seem off to me was their lack of empathy. Sarah had talked about being an empath in the past and I really related to that, but then there were so many instances when both her and Kurt showed such a lack of understanding to what real people go through in normal life. They have the mentality that if you’re poor, it’s your fault. If you’re sick, it’s your fault. If you’re unhappy or depressed, it’s your fault. I started to understand that she is anything but empathetic.
Then came the bushfire fiasco, and that shocked me. Seeing her crying in the car that time… that seriously started to make me see that perhaps she was not exactly the person that she portrayed online. That said, it was really confusing to me because in her comments I could only find hundreds of positive messages telling her she’s an inspiration and not to listen to the “haters”. That made me double guess myself a bit and made me think that maybe I was imagining things.
After that came braidsgate and her reaction to BLM and her making it so abundantly clear that she is a closet racist, and that shattered any remains of the love affair instantly. Being able to physically witness for myself her deleting comments from POC and allies, and continually leave up and even like comments that encouraged racism and made fun of the situation was sickening. I felt disgusted that this was the person I had been supporting blindly for years.
After that I continued to watch, I don’t know why I didn’t unfollow straight away but something about it made me keep following her, it’s like a car crash when you just can’t look away. As soon as I realised who she truly was it seemed so blatantly obvious. Then came the disaster that was Sunee, and I remember being shocked at how badly she was
bleeping up, not responding to paying customers, etc and somehow found my way over to Tattle just after she launched the app and the bad reviews were coming in.
And thanks to Tattle, my eyes were fully opened to the massive web of lies that is Sarah’s Day. Every single thing she says and does is calculated, fake, and manipulative. She contradicts herself with every sentence that comes out of her mouth. I still can’t understand how I never saw any of this 4 years ago, how I used to idolise her totally. I even thought she had the perfect relationship
Jesus Christ I look back on my old self with such pity
As time goes by she reveals more and more of her true self, and it is truly an honour to be here watching this (slow, but steady in my opinion) car crash that is Sarah’s Day with all of you guys
I’m so grateful for all the receipts, opinions, and personal stories you’ve all shared over the years that really helped to open my eyes to how
bleeping crazy she is but also how disordered that way of living truly is, and more importantly given me examples of a much healthier and happier version of what life can be.
I tend more to lurk than post but I just want to reiterate how happy I am to have found this community. You have all opened my eyes to such intelligent points of view on such varied topics, from pregnancy, fertility issues, motherhood, race, privilege to health, fitness, work, and more. I feel that you have enriched my world view in many ways, and not to mention the fact that you are so hilarious! I’ve started to look forward to waking up so I can read what you guys over in Aus have been chatting about while I’ve been sleeping. It’s great to know there are such hilarious, like-minded, inspirational people out there, some of you so far away but all so close to my heart. Thank you!
PS. Oh God this is so long. Sorry!! It was really therapeutic to sit and write out exactly why I feel the way I do about Sarah. I hate so much that we’re blindly labelled hAtErS when in reality most of us are ex-fans of Sarahs who have been burned one too many times and had their eyes opened to who she really is when she’s not in front of the camera!
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the flag is just in my emojis lovely
which is what she should have done to start with…..what was she thinking a recipie app 
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). I then found free copies of her ebooks and downloaded them, and basically tortured myself every morning at the gym before work, then would come home and binge in the evenings and hate myself for it. And I would wonder how she could get away with it and stay thin but I couldn’t.
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