Sorry for the rant, when I was a student I mentored first years (I mention this later), but that’s the context of why I got annoyed watching the essay video and hadn’t seen it until now
Rewatching the essay video because I think I found her just after it so couldn’t remember it exactly. I think the main thing for me with the essay video was just, kid of the lack of awareness of the audience watching it. I mean how she jumps straight into it because she’d seen other people do it, fair enough, but those people do it with a heads up/context that their happiness or disappointment is within their expectations of their selves and not on that one mark as it should be taken for everyone, basically stating that if they’re disappointed with x Mark but you got it doesn’t automatically mean you should be disappointed to, it’s all within context that only you understand. I know not everyone likes disclaimers like that, but when your audience is built around study motivation and university, especially in a humanities subject where your writing is ultimately subjective (Eng Lit MA student over here so trust me I feel that), when her audience are likely in second year first year or younger, there’s a degree of responsibility even when you’re only in first year yourself. This is like the first thing I made sure to say when mentoring first year students in my second year.
the kicker for me is that the very first line of her description is “I wanted to show you my honest reaction to receiving this grade and I hope that it can be helpful/relatable if you are currently facing *failure* on some level” then saying you shouldn’t take chances in the video?!?! Ruby, you got a first year mark that’s normal, but she goes on and on about “bad grades” when it’s NOT!
context: I had a similar experience in third year where I was knocked down by getting a 2:2 in an essay that counted that I didn’t think I’d done anything differently for, yes I cried and felt a bit crap about itso I just want to say I get the emotion but the wording aroundit really hit the wrong way for me as someone who’s mentored first year students - a quick “it’s not the end of the world if you get a bad mark” at the end really isn’t going to stick against the rest of it