"I'm embarrassed" = "I'm VARRY proud of myself but also VARRY humble" in Rubyspeak.
She's incapable of shame or embarrassment, and the grimacing, bodychecking performance here is on the same over-the-top level as her "dramatic readings". She's expecting compliments, and waiting for the people to tell her she should be on the West End for the ego boost.
"All my stress has melted away! I feel so relaxed and carefree!"
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Sure, Jan.
Like
@Mr.Mistoffelees says, she's clearly trying to convince herself and everyone else that she's not panicking and that the disappointing grade that's on the way won't affect her.
And still no acknowledgment that she's the one who's been pushing toxic productivity on her viewers and constantly harping on about "deadline season"
all the time.