I just hate how that bed stands in her room and with her head right by the door
Give me the trash can, I'm puking
The fung-shui is all wrongI just hate how that bed stands in her room and with her head right by the door
OT but when I was 6 we had to make posters showing what we wanted to be when we grew up, and for some reason I said I wanted to be a waitress. Guess who bleeping smashed that dream
Seriously tho, surely when she was still getting therapy this must have come up?? Like no therapist could possibly have missed all this can they, unless she just straight up lied in all her sessions. I wonder whether that's why she stopped - it is true that to get better you have to want to, maybe she just refused to acknowledge she had a problem.
There comes a certain point in therapy (if you have a good therapist!) where I think you have to confront probably very uncomfortable things about yourself in order to grow as a person. I don’t know if I can see Ruby having the insight to be able to do that without being defensive and ‘bullied by the therapist!’.I get the impression she didn't take therapy seriously or treat it the way she needed to. I doubt she was open and honest about most things. It always struck me as something she treated like another box-ticking exercise - six sessions and then she believes she's magically cured of what ails her.
Also, congrats on crushing your dreams like an absolute boss!
Self-taught, which is probably why her technique is crap and why she tore ligaments in her ankle the last time (and then refused to relax and rest, so it took longer to heal.)In no way am I gymnast or anything like that, (I have never done gymnastics, so I'm sorry if this is wrong!) But when she does that front walkover she always looks like she is going to break her back when she comes back up. Did she ever have proper training or is she just self taught?
So dark academia (from what I understand from various YT videos) can be about classical literature, studying unusual subjects (think Holmes and his studies on pipe ash), and romanticising both study and moments from life/ the past.Incidentally, I may be marking myself out as Too Old For This Bullshit, but how does a dark academia aesthetic even fit into a dissertation?? I understand that it's things like candles and handwriting and dressing a certain way (correct me if I'm wrong!!) and I would love to be enlightened as to what a 'dark academia feel' means in the context of... actual academic writing.
It's weird that, despite how much she goes on about it, she's generally so disinterested in the dark academia aesthetic that the most she'll do is wear a plaid dress and light a wonky candle and call it a day. Yet now she apparently needs that DARK MACADEMIA ENERGY to stay interested in her studies. Sounds like she's subconsciously trying to find any reason not to write her dissertation.So dark academia (from what I understand from various YT videos) can be about classical literature, studying unusual subjects (think Holmes and his studies on pipe ash), and romanticising both study and moments from life/ the past.
I'm guessing that finding obscure primary sources to answer a question that no-one in the history of mankind has yet posed, travelling to far off libraries to gawp at old books, and writing the most florid prose imaginable ticks all of those boxes.
(Honestly there are so many sub-genres of dark m-acadamia, but I've pulled a Roobes and cherry-picked the points she mentions wanting to focus on in her Notion)
I wonder if she did the same thing I did in a lot of my early therapy sessions- I downplayed a lot of my problems because I didn’t want my therapist to worry about me, and because I didn’t want her to hurt her feelings by making her think she wasn’t helping me. It’s a terrible way to treat therapy and in me rose out of a deep seated need to please everyone. Ruby, if you’re lurking on this thread and did this in the past, please try therapy again and don’t do this, I had it for an eating disorder as well and it only worsened as I forced myself to be perfect for everyone including the person meant to help me. You don’t need to be perfect for everyone or indeed anyone- which I know it’s always annoying to hear- and those who love you would almost certainly have you whole, healthy, and as messy as all humans are, instead of some warped definition of perfect that could led to your death.OT but when I was 6 we had to make posters showing what we wanted to be when we grew up, and for some reason I said I wanted to be a waitress. Guess who bleeping smashed that dream
Seriously tho, surely when she was still getting therapy this must have come up?? Like no therapist could possibly have missed all this can they, unless she just straight up lied in all her sessions. I wonder whether that's why she stopped - it is true that to get better you have to want to, maybe she just refused to acknowledge she had a problem.
She kept injuring herself last time she was doing gymnastics regularly (or her version of gymnastics) and learned absolutely nothing. I'd say if she's starting up again she's sure to mess herself up as she's also not been eating properly for months, so I'd imagine her muscles and bones aren't going to be fans of her backflipping like a drunk circus clown.Anyone want to bet how long it‘s going to take until she injures herself? Wish she would
put a disclaimer for her younger audience that gymnastics can be dangerous and no
one should just fling themself as carelessly around as she does.
This is where the dark academia side of things will come into play.Thinking back to my undergraduate dissertation, it was a car crash. I was assigned a supervisor who I could tell had her favourites and I was not one of them. I was also suffering with personal issues and so really didn't try hard enough. I remember the supervisor being really savage about my draft that I walked home feeling so defeated. I think it is a lottery as to whether you get a good supervisor or one who just lets rip Imagine if Ruby got assigned the most fed up, sarcastic supervisor like I was . Again I reckon Ruby will work hard, not smart, she will waste the summer reading but find her first draft gets torn to shreds and I don't think she will cope (I didn't).
.... all self praise here. Is this normal?
We need to work "super-clever literary bunny" in the next thread title. Please make it happenShe gets such weird comments lol. What does this even mean
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