If anyone on here who has been through domestic violence is able to chat to me I would appreciate it. I reached out to Rachel in the past but was ignored. My abusive husband sat me down on Monday and told me he realised he's been abusing and manipulating me since the very beginning. He's acknowledged every single thing - violence, emotional, manipulation. This morning he left me. We have 5 month old twins. My heart is absolutely ripped in two. I know he was awful to me, but I love him so much and I'm heartbroken. I don't know how to get through this and I have hidden every ounce of abuse from every person I know.
This is my third relationship in a row where I've suffered domestic violence. I must be asking for it. I cannot stop crying and have called in family to come look after my children as I cannot get out of bed. I don't know how to get through this. I'm sorry for posting everything on here but at this point he's isolated me from everyone I know.
I am so sorry to read this. Firstly, you have to believe that you are not the cause and it's not your fault. So glad you have family to help you, please be honest with them and don't hide things anymore.
Women's Aid have a survivor's forum you can look at (sorry can't send a link, easily found via google) and talk to women who have been in abusive relationships. I'm sure they will know of support in your area and you can discuss whats helped them? You don't have to sign up immediately, you can read what is being said first, and if it might be useful to you. Plenty of info on the website.
Sending you a huge amount of love and strength, and if you need encouragement and a boost, the trolls are here to listen