I’ve spent today feeling a bit off. My moods been pretty low recently which isn’t unusual as my moods are very up and down anyway but tonight when my daughter went to bed I was sat on the sofa, on my own as usual and I just burst into tears. The type of tears I couldn’t stop.
I hate what I am about to say because I’ve been here before with her but Hinch has really got to me these past couple of days. I think tonight’s posting about her ‘kids’ coming round is what finished me off. I am feeling so alone and lonely. I don’t have any friends, I don’t have a partner or husband, I have a disability and unable to work at the moment so I am isolated too. I have zero confidence or self esteem either.
Today I was sat in Costa on my own waiting for my daughters phone screen to be replaced so I had no choice but to go in and I looked about watching people together, friends laughing and I felt awful. Hinch has no idea just how bloody lucky she is. She has a support system, someone always there for her whether it’s Jamie or her mum or her kids.