I'm just going to say, if you're a big fan of Matthew and you haven't read his autobiography yet and you are debating whether you're going to get it or not... maybe don't. At least, not right now. Let the dust settle.
I wish I hadn't read it. Chandler was always my favourite character and therefore by extension I loved Matthew. Because I made the mistake of thinking he WAS Chandler. Then I read (or rather listened) to 'Friends, Lovers and the big, terrible thing' and I came away actively hating him (Sorry, but that's the truth) because (and yes, I know we shouldn't speak ill of the dead but go back through the thread, it's all there) he definitely didn’t make it easy to like him. And no, I'm not talking about his addictions, that could happen to anyone. I'm talking about his other behaviours.
And now that all this has happened, yes I feel bad that he has died, it's no age and I feel for his family and friends and many, MANY fans, but I feel like had I NOT bought that book I could have mourned him in blissful ignorance. ATM I just feel... kind of numb. 🫤
RIP MP, I hope you find the peace you could never find in life