Gossgossgoss9888
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You're all so lovely.
I'm so sorry for being such a miseryguts.
I know she doesn't work every day because of her kids.
So maybe she hasn't seen it yet. So I should probably recall it because she'll feel bad about missing it.
Or maybe she's seen it but doesn't think it needs a response. In which case she'll see me trying to recall it and will think I'm mad.
Feel like a dick for emailing anyway when other people have real problems and need her help.
So maybe she hasn't seen it yet. So I should probably recall it because she'll feel bad about missing it.
Or maybe she's seen it but doesn't think it needs a response. In which case she'll see me trying to recall it and will think I'm mad.
Feel like a dick for emailing anyway when other people have real problems and need her help.
Can't fucking concentrate or focus, it's doing my head in.
Working on a thing that has a connected document that about 5 people have contributed to. Made a couple of updates for the bit I'm doing. Boss reviewed it and came back with loads of comments on the other bits, now I have to dig into all the decisions that other people made weeks ago so I can explain them.
Trying to get stuff done but I feel so slow and stupid, like everything I do is wrong. Still stuck going into the office every day because of my trainee, who keeps asking if I'm okay because I'm quiet and it's exhausting to keep reassuring her.
Bumped into work crush on my way to hide a panic in the toilet. He asked if I was okay, I said yes but couldn't stop my face from doing this
Later he brought a cup of tea to my desk and asked again if everything was OK. I know you'll think I should have said something, not even for the crush but for talking to someone. But I couldn't.
Working on a thing that has a connected document that about 5 people have contributed to. Made a couple of updates for the bit I'm doing. Boss reviewed it and came back with loads of comments on the other bits, now I have to dig into all the decisions that other people made weeks ago so I can explain them.
Trying to get stuff done but I feel so slow and stupid, like everything I do is wrong. Still stuck going into the office every day because of my trainee, who keeps asking if I'm okay because I'm quiet and it's exhausting to keep reassuring her.
Bumped into work crush on my way to hide a panic in the toilet. He asked if I was okay, I said yes but couldn't stop my face from doing this
Later he brought a cup of tea to my desk and asked again if everything was OK. I know you'll think I should have said something, not even for the crush but for talking to someone. But I couldn't.
Not really feeling very connected to my body at the minute. Bit dissociatey all of the time. Big blank nothingness interspersed with weepy moments. Bit scary.
Haven't heard from the doctors if I'm registered yet. I ticked the box on the form that I wanted them to let me know. Don't want to bug them but maybe I'll call and check if I haven't heard by next week. Don't know if I'll have the courage to make an appointment though. Don't have the courage for much.
Haven't heard from the doctors if I'm registered yet. I ticked the box on the form that I wanted them to let me know. Don't want to bug them but maybe I'll call and check if I haven't heard by next week. Don't know if I'll have the courage to make an appointment though. Don't have the courage for much.
On sofa, wrapped in blanket.
Cup of tea. Going to eat mac and cheese in a min. It's the first thing I've eaten all day, I'm sorry.
Then will go to bed after. Nothing worth staying up for.
Cup of tea. Going to eat mac and cheese in a min. It's the first thing I've eaten all day, I'm sorry.
Then will go to bed after. Nothing worth staying up for.
I'm so sorry for being such a miseryguts.
Ravish me then discard me if you wish, John.
