And me, I hope. I've been diagnosed with BPD which I am currently disputing with the Health Board, one of the reasons for which is that the psychiatrist based the diagnosis on various points such as suicidal ideation, which apparently is the translation of my statement that "I have never considered suicide; I want my life to be better, not ended."
I have absolutely no follow up whatsoever, not even a booklet on BPD. I originally thought that I possibly had the non-hyperactive ADHP or ADD but I couldn't have that because I wasn't hyperactive
. The psychiatrist and consultant considered autism I was told but I was refused entrance to the diagnosis pathway because 'autism had never been broached as a possibility before'...
. I was told that Psychology had discharged me after one appointment without informing me, but this was later backpedalled to 'after Covid-19'.... I have no care contacts at all.
I have been off work since February between sick leave and lockdown. Together with Occupational Health, I admitted that my current role was making me severely mentally ill and requested a transfer. I still haven't found another role and there is only another week or less left before the competency procedure starts to kick in. I may appeal for longer to the CEO on the grounds of lockdown. My PIP application papers came today and I'm wondering whether I could afford to go part-time if I get a little something.
Jack has had enormous opportunities which she has wasted. I'm very bad at budgeting too but I have realised that that is a symptom of my illness and sought help. I'm lucky as, though I don't have immediate family and none near me, I do have friends and, at 59, still from school and university. People from past employment seem to have liked me enough to keep in touch and I have a loving religious circle of friends in Wica. I am aware that I have problems and I acknowledge them, and that, Jack, is the first step.