I am not that thing
but it’s clear to see
Yes she is desperate, she’s not really hiding it, she is putting him through the rage - hoover cycle to try to get his attention, you can also see how disappointed she is when he doesn’t reply, or when it’s very factual.
She is afraid and she lashes out of fear and anger.
Sometimes she’s drunk, you can tell she’s feeling melancholy or angry and is using him as her own personal diary to unload her feelings onto him (which he probably experienced a lot)
I understand she’s afraid, and this must be quite scary but her absolute downfall is the assumption he will not challenge her, and he is scared of her and she will eventually win, that’s why she keeps going and going at him. To win