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watermelon sugar

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Thanks everyone

I agree with all you're saying! I'm feeling a lot better today and me and him aren't getting on eachothers nerves as much

I dont think I can dm anyone 😔 I've been a naughty girl and had some warnings so think that luxury has been taken away from me!
 
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Tilly3

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Hey up, I too agree with previous posters, ring your gp, sounds like you need a little pick me up, anti depressant of some sort, I was the same with my second, I took them for about 6 months then gradually weaned myself off them, they were my saviour in some dark times. Keep your chin up lovely xx
 
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Kim Mild

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Is anyone about for a chat? Sorry to drag an old thread up again but I'm feeling shit and don't know what to do or who to talk to

I just feel so stressed and miserable all the time. I'm constantly on edge. I feel anxious about absolutely everything. I come on here and try to be funny but I feel like I'm living a lie putting on a happy face all the time. I'm so unhappy

A few weeks ago it was because me and my boyfriend weren't getting on, we're better, he is still annoying but it's just everything getting me down. He suggested I have post natal depression. I did think that when the baby was first born but I got fobbed off because it was the start of covid. I dont think the situation with everything going on helps either

Meh
Do you have a health visitor you can speak to ? They may be more equipped to give post natal support than the gp ( this may vary in different regions of the country) .

I do think from what you've said on here before that there are situations at home that make you unhappy, and these feelings are valid .
Your partner can't use suspected post natal depression as an excuse for his unacceptable behaviour.
 
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WilmaHun

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Glad to see you've at least got some help Watermelon! Fingers crossed the pills start to make an improvement on your mood. Make sure you do call back in 2 weeks, even if you feel a bit better! I think you're right, the weather is horrendous where I am today and it's made me feel a right miserable cow if I'm honest, so no doubt the weather, coupled with lockdown and everything else you've got going on is getting you down. I really hope things start to improve for you!
 
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Kindred

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Hi!

So, just wanted to hop on and say "I feel you!" and "I was/am you"
I had what's called a "high needs" baby. collic, never settled, never sleeping without being forcibly rocked to sleep, never being put down.

My advice is stop, rethink, re-evaluate, regroup and try again. Basically no, your partner working outside of the house is not a fair enough excuse for him to leave 99% f childcare to you. he gets days off, you don't. you are working 24/7, you are on call 24/7! it took 2 to make your gorgeous son, it'll take 2 to raise him. it absolutely takes team work! you are a well oiled machine, work like one mechanism, support each other like you're each-others extension. This might sound a bit strange as it is in todays society )though society is getting much better with understanding and supporting women in this way) but if we do not get a chance to heal durring the 4th trimester post partum [period and connect with the baby and our partner, we can very quickly get overwhelmed with all the absolute bollocks of "the housework needs to be done whilst bb is exclusively breastfed and you still put dinner out so your partner can come home like an absolute pleb and do fuck-all and dnt forget to bounce back to size 8 figure before baby is even sitting". it's all brainwashing crap that makes women think they need to accept dirt poor performance from their partners because men are not to be held accountable for anything.

I have 3 kids, expecting my 4th and what I have learned is that kids are all different. all of mine are! one slept, one never did, one gave me absolute headache with everything they came up with. You gotto remember that this is such a short little season of life, you will sleep through the night soon again!
the baby is developing, learning the world still and has such big uncontrollable emotions. And the thing he knows the best is that YOU are GOOD. you are warm, soft, you smell lovely to him, you come when he is not ok, you come when he calls for you. 7
you are a steadfast source of love and comfort for him, of course he will fight sleep and scream for you, why would he sleep through when he can rock out with mumma?!
You are his whole world, he's only been alive for such a few short months...
This is what I remind myself and all new mommas who are so so tired because their babies need them so much in the night.

This too will pass. stay strong. Stay strong for you little one and also put your foot down with your partner.
my ex was the same way, he's make a big deal about being woken up by baby and how tired he is but he was never the one up for hours every night with the baby. he'd talk about how hard work is but would never help with any housework whilst I was balancing postpartum and newborn and colic and depression. He's been kicked to the curb when said baby was half a year old because that's not the MAN my daughter needed to be "raised" by. man child more like.

follow your sons lead, if he needs to be up or cosleep or feed to sleep or more skin contact, do that. whatever gives you both more sleep and makes you both feel happy.
anyway, you got this! apologies for the essay. but I FEEL YOU, YOU ARE NOT ALONE though you may feel very lonely (we all do, it's a hard situation to exist in atm)
sending you hugs xx
 
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Milliehaha123

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Is anyone about for a chat? Sorry to drag an old thread up again but I'm feeling shit and don't know what to do or who to talk to

I just feel so stressed and miserable all the time. I'm constantly on edge. I feel anxious about absolutely everything. I come on here and try to be funny but I feel like I'm living a lie putting on a happy face all the time. I'm so unhappy

A few weeks ago it was because me and my boyfriend weren't getting on, we're better, he is still annoying but it's just everything getting me down. He suggested I have post natal depression. I did think that when the baby was first born but I got fobbed off because it was the start of covid. I dont think the situation with everything going on helps either

Meh
Hope you're ok!!

Have you managed to speak to your GP? I don't know much about PND but I do have anxiety and it sounds like you're really suffering. They can do lots to help and you shouldn't have to feel miserable so often. I asked my GP for propranolol and they were happy to give it - it's honestly changed my life xx
 
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ClockworkDolly

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Oh my word, he broke his ankle, so now you’ll have double the work! 😮

I do hope that you are getting rest when your baby is asleep. 💛
 
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watermelon sugar

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So sorry to hear you are feeling so down.

I don't have kids, so cannot appreciate what you are experiencing, but my friend/colleague has an absolute mare with her little boy not sleeping and being on the go all the time. She considers work a break. I assume you aren't working at the moment - is that maternity leave or otherwise?

Also sorry your boyfriend isn't being more supportive. Could he possibly take a holiday to get some catch up time at home with you and baby?

Not excusing his behaviour, but lockdown is hard. Is he really exhausted, or just emotionally? I'm tired all the time with no good reason!

Are you getting plenty of daylight? It's a bad time of the year for feeling blue/run down.
I'm taking a year off for maternity leave so I go back in March! But I'm wfh if things haven't gone back to normal by then

Yeah I try to go for a walk everyday with the pram! I love getting out and having fresh air

I can see why he is tired - he does work a fair bit when he is in. Hes not in as much due to covid but when he is he works 7am-5pm. But he has a good few days off a week and everytime hes off he falls asleep early on the couch and has lie ins till 10/11am 🙄 not to make it all about me but I get up every night through the night with the baby then get up at 5.30/6am with him everyday!
 
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Belulah

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Hiya, yeah I did i rang up and got told the mental health nurse would ring me. She finally rang and gave me a 2 week prescription of sertraline and referred me to Access Sefton for talking therapy. Told me to ring back in 2 weeks 🤷🏻‍♀️ i feel a bit better today but the weather/lockdown doesn't help 😫
Sertraline has always really helped me once it kicks in. I’ve recently gone back it it. Talking therapy is amazing. I’ve spoke to two great ladies at two very different points in my life.
 
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Tinkerbell cat

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An addict will never put anyone or anything above their addiction. It’s futile to even try or expect him to do so - he has a illness that he needs help for but that’s his problem, his issue to sort out. This lady needs to put herself first and put her health first.
Annie do you have any trusted friends or family you can seek help from?
Yes I know that, I have a father with a severe alcohol addiction and he has had that since I am old enough to remember. I know how awful it can be to live with addiction and hope that one day they will change, knowing they need to want to change otherwise they never will. This man is her husband though and she might not just want to up and leave like that. Sometimes things just aren't as easy as that unfortunately and I am just trying to give a bit of advice, i did say though to make sure she puts her mental health first and foremost as it is the most important thing here. x
Annie you have made the first step in opening up about how you feel, it takes a lot to do so. xx
 
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Misbehaving

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10-12 months is a rough time. Your baby is probably learning loads, babbling, possibly trying to walk etc.

My first was terrible. He woke up 3 times a night and was up for the day at 5am. Then before his 1st birthday he started sleeping through the night.

Try not to cut out naps but expect that they might not be as long. Can you take him out a walk to get him to sleep? I find that it saves the battles.

It’s such a cliche but it is a phase and he will come out of it.

Most people say leave the chores but I’d say do what you can. A messy house can be quite triggering. Have a gentle word with your other half and try and get him to do what he can. Loading the washing machine or dish washer? Making you both a meal?

Now if I only had some pearls of wisdom to get my own baby to sleep.... 😂
Yes i second that your baby will pass this it takes time and a lot of patience but things will settle down eventually.
Men are not always very understanding are they? I think because babies naturally bond more with the mother (after all they did spend 9 months inside us!) there can be a tendancy to assume that mothers know best (which they usually do but thats not always the right response!) and an attitude of oh i'll just leave her to get on with things?
Thats what i found ?
It sounds like its the practical things that he could help with though yes he works but looking after a baby is also a full time job especially if you are on your own.
You need a break i think so you definitely need to sit him down and tell him so in no uncertain terms.
I was in a similar situation about two years ago but didn't say anything just kept going putting on a brave face but looking back on it actually i was not well and had pretty bad pnd.
I'm not saying that is what you have but in all honesty if you feel vulnerable or irritable high strung or easily angered or upset or are having bouts of crying then maybe consider talking to a health visitor or your gp.
I wish i had my daughter is 3 now and sometimes i still feel depressed and sometimes she still doesn't sleep very well!!
It seems to come in fits and spurts sometimes she will go for weeks sleeping through the night at other times she is restless and wakes frequently?
So i know you feel like and lockdown and isolation are a really pain aren't they?
I have not seen my mother in one year and we both live in london!
To be honest though even when she did come she was not very helpful and my husbands mother died when he was five so i'm all alone as well with no back up.
It puts pressure on a relationship i get that men just seem to hone in on the fun bits (playing with kids?l and leave the more mundane things to mum?
Can your partner take the baby out for a walk in his buggy?
I used to find this a godsend?
One hour to yourself (at least) i think you really need that?
Make regular routines for yourself to get some breathing space even if its just a walk around the block to get some air?
You need space to think and breathe and to just be you?
Don't beat yourself up about your baby not sleeping much stick to a routine as much as you can and i found my health visitor to be helpful in putting my mind at ease.
Get advise from here from anywhere even from the dreaded child rearing manuals!
Hey some are better than others but most contain a sleep section?
If your a first time mum though sometimes its just trail and error and patience and observation untill it clicks into place.
Good luck with everything there will be good days and bad days but make sure that you get your needs met because that is just as important as the baby getting what he needs.
I wish you well.
 
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DCICassieStuart

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I don't think i can send private messages cos of my warnings! I'm okay, still a bit down but nowhere near as bad as yesterday. I went to get my prescription before and was good to get out and get some fresh air. Says take in the morning so will start them tomorrow. Hopefully my mood picks up xx
I wasn't sure whether or not it was my settings. Glad you're feeling a bit better. My friend is on sertraline since last September. She said first couple of weeks, she found hard but is feeling a lot better since, so hopefully they'll work well for you too x
 
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Lreb88

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My son went through the same thing at about 10 months, fighting his naps and bedtime, it would take hours to get him to sleep and we’d all end up in tears by then end of it. We tried controlled crying and it worked so well for us, he sleeps through the night now and has a good 90 min nap at lunchtime.
If you do want any tips let me know, I understand it’s not for everyone though. xx
 
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watermelon sugar

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I found being a Mum a lot easier when I stopped looking too far into the reasons my baby was acting how he was acting. Yeah he could be teething, he could be going through a leap or a development stage or he could just be being a pain. Either way, it is what it is.

It’s SO hard, and I really feel for you. My son has never been a particularly good sleeper and he still wakes most nights in the night now even though he’s getting towards 2. I hate the smug parents who are like my baby slept through from 6 weeks.. PISS OFF!! Even more so when they’re like “oh my baby has slept through since xyz but the past 2 nights has been waking - help”. Get a grip!!

It sounds like a bit of resentment between you and your partner - him because he’s working so he’s tired from that and you because you’re doing 99% of the childcare and your tired. I’d say that’s pretty normal.

Are you going back to work? I found that helped our family a lot when I returned to work because he could no longer throw work at me and I felt I had more footing to demand help.

I hope you’re ok x
Yeah I tell myself so many times to stop looking online at what the baby should be doing and why he is acting the way he is. I try to and it goes well then when he's going through a bad phase I always end up googling. I can't help myself, I've always been like that though, a stresshead 🙄

He's never been very good. Always has a feed through the night and up early but he used to go back to sleep pretty quick. All of a sudden he's awake for 3 hours. Last night he woke up at 2.30am and was awake til 5am 🥴
One of my best friends has a 6 month old and all I hear is 'she's been sleeping through since she was 12 weeks old' just not what I wanna hear!!!

Yeah I am, in March, working from home though. I had a year off. Even though the whole year hasn't felt like maternity leave lol. I think that affects me a lot as well, covid happening and having a new baby and being a ftm

Thank you. I think I've just got to boiling point today x
 
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watermelon sugar

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Plus, the month of January is traditionally quite a depressing month for a lot of people, myself including. With the mania of Christmas and New Year out of the way, what we're left with is the cold month of January, which really doesn't help lift people's moods.

Get to February, and things become a little better. And by March the clocks go forward and we start to see the early stages of Spring, and lighter/warmer mornings & evenings.

It all helps psychologically even if we're still in lockdown by then.

Try to think of the positives no matter how small or insignificant - glass is always half-full, and all that (y).
I'm usually super happy & positive as well

I always try and see the good in things but I'm stumped at the minute 😂
 
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Kim Mild

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My baby is almost 1, and still breastfeeding, especially to sleep. They are up for about 3 hours in the night and scream when I put them back in the cot. I'm so tired and my posture suffers too.
They probably are going through a developmental leap but I wonder if we disturb them. Could your baby go in their own room ?

I also think lockdown doesn't help. The routine we have ended up in isn't productive and I think baby and 3 year old probably need more stimulation (as they are often up til 9PM or later). I feel a bit trapped in the house because I don't sometimes leave for days on end.

I would suggest getting a bit me time , leave baby with your partner and get out for a walk or drive to the shop or something. Time out from the situation might refresh you.
 
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Raininvain

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Hi, I'd keep your options very much open, could you talk to your Mum and Dad about what's going on for you? It sounds to me like hes very lazy and an entitled man. What did he think it was like having a baby? If he doesn't improve within a short space of time I'd be off. If he's as bad as this what's he going to be like if you have a serious life problem? Like someone is very ill and needs a lot of treatment or a sudden death etc? You need someone who will support you and your child not sleeping beauty.
If he's got depression then he needs to get treatment.
Hope things do turnaround for you.
 
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Beverley Macker

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Hope you are doing a bit better Watermelon, you’re so lovely and it’s such a tough time at the moment-never mind being a new mum! It will get better, I know it sounds trite, but it so will x
 
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