Really want to give up tonight.
Three days ago my retailer called me and asked me to take back my unsold artwork because they were redoing their shop. I realised that they had packed away most of my work after having it up on display for barely a week. Not ideal, but okay, lots of new artists needed the space.
They'd already packed my stuff and said that I'd made the inventory wrong, I had photo evidence that I had given them more of certain small but expensive items than they were claiming. They said okay, kids must have stolen them, we will give you a token amount only because it's not our fault. My work was stolen from their premises but it's not their fault. Great. I let them know that I was upset and closed my account with them.
Checked the packed bags to see all my things were there and left after my meeting with my cousin.
I was packing things away and saw why they'd packed the bags so tightly - almost everything they had damaged in places, a lot of it beyond repair. Little embellishments that I had taken days to perfect all smashed. Loss amounting to about $200 - an amount I could have used to pay the electricity bill for the next month. In hindsight, I should have checked better and created a scene then and there. Was too in shock over the stolen pieces at the time.
On top of this a client who has bought from me before called me a few days ago and asked for some things to give as gifts. Told them the ETA that I had Covid, getting the supplies would take a week+ etc, they were haggling over less than a dollar and making snarky comments. Yesterday they sent more snarky comments about how they have to start packing their bags soon - they had not given me a particular date, but I had anyway said I'd have everything in three days from now - a week before they travel. Then I realised that on top of the extremely dumb haggling (I am giving them everything at cost) and the snarky comments, they completely ignored my earlier request that they give me at least two weeks' notice. I was too brain-fogged (their call had woken me up from a medicated nap) to realise that at the time, not that I could have refused to make the order.
I can't say anything to anyone right now or afford to turn down orders or confront retailers because of the situation that I am in, all thanks to the narcs in my life. Are they facing any consequences? Mum is, and she is definitely not liking it. I am getting some of the heat from that as well.
My heart and brain feel quite broken right now. Feeling so stupid and cowardly. And I'm sure I'll feel more of that when mum wakes up and yells at me and starts crying. Can't see any solutions, don't have any more money to throw at all this. I guess I'll just finish whatever supplies I have, try to sell what I can and that's it, at least until I can get a job that pays enough for household expenses, paying off debt, savings, and then maybe look into pursuing art again.
And then the angry bites from the Pup today.
I seriously don't know the difference between a yacht and a canoe, nor have I married an idiot prince and tried to ruin his family. Why then, Universe?
and them a little friendly hex 
I hope things improve 
