She is so desperate to be loved and it is sad because anyone with eyes can see the men she ends up with only want to be with her for exposure and a free place to live. Lee clearly doesn't feel the same way about her as she does for him.
Honestly I was just thinking this the other day scrolling her insta (furlough boredom lol). And truthfully I feel sorry for her because these guys do use her for the comfy lifestyle and influencers perks. I would actually love to see her in a equal relationship where she puts in as much as she gets out. Lee definitely comes across at the nicest/most solid guy that she’s dated since being on YouTube but he has never come across as being as ‘all in’ as she is. Compared to that weird guy she was dating at the start of her YouTube career who didn’t even want to be seen publicly with her, and then Simon who for the last few years of the relationship was absolutely 100% solely in it for a place to live and someone to fund him I understand why she was so enamoured with Lee.
Plus the breakup with Simon must have been a blow to her self esteem, he immediately moved into a serious relationship with someone else (a subscriber no less!) and now they’re engaged. Lee is attractive, he’s a singer so I understand why she romanticises him and also after what Simon did she gets to show everyone she’s moved on by building it up as something earth shatteringly amazing (helps to heal the ego.) But she wants what Simon and his fiancée have, two people who are obviously crazy about each other and are actively building a life together.
It explains why she seems to veer so wildly from ‘madly in love man of my dreams’ to ‘my boyfriend is driving me insane I want to murder him’. It’s been a few years now and I understand marriage isn’t important to everyone but I feel like Grace is waiting/wondering if and when he’ll propose and make a commitment to her. She literally got his name tattooed on her hand. And from the initial lock down vlogs she was doing it seems like she does all the cooking, all the cleaning while he sits around playing video games. I feel for her because when you have low self esteem you end up in these unbalanced relationships where you aren’t valued. As for the pregnancy speculation I 100% agree with the manifestation theory, and that any vague allusions to ‘exciting news’ are about this book deal.