Girl seriously leave this abusive and controlling man while you can Gemma, it’s only going to get worse if you get married or have another baby. You pay the bills, you clean and take care of the baby and prepare all y’all’s meals, your life will be easier without him, it will be one less person to take care of and one less responsibility. Someday soon you will tire of his “jokes” and “charms” and eating pre cooked sausage and potatoes all the time will bore you. (btw men like this NEVER do anything that make them uncomfortable, like changing toxic habits or trying new things or visiting new places so have fun letting him decide all your meals and vacations for the rest of your life. I’m sure the man is riveting.) Some day you will want to actually better yourself but you realize there is only so much you can do when your partner treats you like dog turds. My grandma was married to a man who was not good for her and not the nicest and a bit controlling, she thrived as best she can but that generational trauma is still with me because I also struggle with leaving a man who is terrible for me but he pays the bills so I will just distract myself with baking. But you pay the bills girl, all Jamie does is leech off of you, you know he doesn’t love you or even like you, he is using you for fame/money/sex and he is also cheating on you babe, you must know that, everyone else does. This isn’t a good look for you, it almost as bad as being a copy of another YouTuber who happens to be racist (surely you don’t admire or aspire to be like someone so terrible). You gained your following and fans (your “best friends”) by being yourself. So be yourself Gemma. What do you want? I believe that you’re a lovely, vibrant, fun loving, adventurous woman under all that beige and sadness. I understand that you want to elevate your channel and be a mature and distinguished woman, but you need to do it your own way. Drop the baby off at Mums for the weekend and fly to a faraway exotic place by yourself or a girlfriend and just fucking live. You are lucky enough to have a career that can be taken anywhere so take it wherever you want. Don’t listen to Jamie or your friends or your family or even us, listen to Gemma. Btw not all of us have loving and supportive moms so please take advantage and find solace in her, she can help you leave this monster.