I was told it's called "floating anxiety" (but this was some years ago, it likely has a posher title now)
It's a
bleeping horror. Like a sword of Damocles always there making you fearful. Fearful of everything and nothing. So weird, I remember it well.
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You say your meds aren't touching it, so ask your doctor to let you try something different. I had about 4 different meds before I found one that didn't immediately have nasty side effects and gave me a tiny chink of hope.
You must know that holding it in for so long every is not healthy. Can you not take some time off and hit the doc's surgery hard to try to find a med that helps? You don't get a cure but you should get something that takes the edge off enough to give you the mental ability to let you work on yourself. You are doing all the right things so your doc can't cite anything you are doing wrong.
But listen bubba, you sound like I did years ago, but here I am getting by. Yes, I have moments where I feel the blanket dropping over me and my breathing getting rapid, but I distract myself till it passes (it always does). And I wasn't doing all the good healthy things you are doing, yet I got a handle on it eventually
with help .
Now, I've mentioned upthread that I've acquired delightful psoriasis
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in recent months, but my doc says he's seeing a lot of such stress related physical issues like psoriasis, insomnia etc since the onset of covid. Everyone has a tale to tell and none are nice, we're just humans and bastard covid is attacking our minds as well as our body. If you were already fragile then it's worse, especially with so little sleep.
I can't offer a solution, just hope that yes, you can climb out of it to some degree but you need to ask for more help. Feel free to vent on here, we never judge.
What outburst. Damita honey ... have you met Freda ?
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I never shut my gob. Opinions on most things and usually couched in cheeky lauguage sprinkled liberally with 'cunts' and effing and jeffing. I've given a few pearl clutching church ladies mild heart attacks, but that's the beauty of this forum, they let you vent or rant without fear of being cancelled.
Stop worrying about what you've posted. You are entitled to your opinion as much as any other
bleep. Double check your posts and if they aren't personal (for example
"well you're just a fat cross-eyed Tory by the looks of your avatar, and your dog is fuckin' fugly too") then hit send. If you are in trouble admin will warn you off and they do it nicely
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... my last warning (last year) was "STOP starting fights!" , but the one before that was my favourite "Leave the
bleeping kids alone" (cos we were laughing at Markles first child who had a bonk eye like his mummy ... I know, I told you, I'm a
witch.
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) Admin on here are cool. Anyway pearl-clutchers can report a post and leave it to admin to judge how offensive it is.
Just chillax and stick to threads you like.