A few confessions because I just need to say it..
I’m addicted to codine.
I have been making myself sick after eating for months.. but won’t go to the dr cause I’m overweight and I think they’ll think im lying because I’d be smaller if I was being sick
I feel worthless as I do every august as I have to take part in multiple family situations where I feel like I don’t belong, but that’s a much longer story.
Need to go back to therapy but im scared and also mad that it costs so much.
Right - codeine, weight issues, family situations.
OK, let's take things one step at a time. Trying to handle all of those things at once is tough on you.
so, you need to break things down into sections.
Like climbing Everest. Start at base camp, go up a piece at a time.
You take codeine for pain control, right?
Could that pain be relieved some other way, ie, physical therapy - physio, osteopath etc? Is that option available to you?
If so, might some gradual sessions help ease your pain and make you rely less on the codeine over time?
Could you maybe wean yourself off the pain meds eventually that way?
Also, a TENS machine helps some people in these situations. The pulses emitted by them helps block the pain messages to the brain.
Might it be possible for you to try one and see if it works for you?
Regarding the weight, now covid lockdown is easing, companies like Weight Watchers are starting to have in-person meetings again where you can go and mix with people struggling with the same problem. There's a lot to be said for tackling weight loss in a group rather than trying to motivate yourself when alone at home.
It's not easy to make yourself go to a meeting, but with support and gentle encouragement from people in here, hopefully, you can pluck up courage.
Family issues - much harder to deal with when you are in pain and feel overweight.
But if you really don't want to attend the family stuff, then you don't have to. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do.
You don't have to explain why, just say you can't make it.
Remove that stress from your situation so you have more energy to cope with your pain control and your weight management.
And then get together with family after a while when you feel happier with your weight and have your pain controlled.
Said 'watcher' got sent away weekend before last - hurrah! After being denied money, cigarettes and use of my mobile - we settled on some coffee and sugar (don't mind that).
She'll be back, just have to be one step ahead.
And yes, she may have mental health problems (personally just think she's a chancer) but I have my own and those of my children; she has her own family to help her out
I have lamps everywhere (low energy bulbs). I particularly love my twinkly lights - not just for Christmas anymore x
And I would really love that one - do you have a link?
Im trying to find it again, Tatty - but Im buggered if I can remember where I saw it and what it was exactly called.
It was like a curved stand with the bowl suspended from it and the glow was so pretty.
It was probably on amazon and i dont think we can link to ammo.
If I can find it i can hopefully post its exact name and description. [No luck so far, sorry.]