sorry this is a lot
the date went really well. we sat at the rooftop bar for 2 hours, he bought me drinks, heavy eye contact and flirting because well, i'm a flirt. talked about everything we hadn't talked about over text like family, education, travelling etc. tons in common. he was telling me about a museum he thought i'd like and i said 'will you take me' as a joke and he said yes lmao. but this was just joking.
because we are both PC nerds i joked asking if he'd show me his PC (obvious hint) and he was like of course. then he took my vape and i was like 'ha it's like we're kissing' and he was like 'maybe we will later who knows'.
go back to his (he very smoothly said 'well should i show you that PC') and drink some wine, he gives me a tour around his flat. his corgi sits on my lap, absolutely loves me, won't leave me alone. then we started kissing and things get a bit heated and i stop the kissing to tell him i haven't dated much this year, and the one time i did i got ghosted and it messed me up, so i'm not here to be messed around and i don't want to give the wrong impression. he said 'i like you, i think we have a lot in common and want to see you again. i can't promise a relationship, we've only met once, but i promise i won't ghost you' and shook on it with me. lol.
then around 10:30pm we started doing stuff............... we went to sleep at 3am. i know. i won't go into detail but we are quite obviously very sexually compatible and attracted to each other. lots of spooning and cuddling (sorry i hate that word too) afterwards. woke up early this morning and he starts cuddling me again and we had sex AGAIN. it was really good ugh (I've slept for 3 hours).
i got ready for work and we kissed and he said 'well have a good day and i'll speak to you later' and i said 'will u though' lmao and he said yes like smiling. at this point i don't care if i come off as too paranoid or suspicious, i want him to know i won't be surprised if he doesn't continue to see me. i am a jaded woman atp
so it was a really good date. but today i am in a shit mood, it's my own fault for doing so much with him despite the fact that i enjoyed it - all that's replaying in my head is 'i can't promise a relationship'. he told me he's a relationship guy and has only ever been in them until a year ago, and in the last year he's had a 'slut phase' - he told me it's been around 8 girls which is fine. but he did have makeup remover for me which i found suspicious. i'm just really apprehensive and scared, because i can picture dating him and keep thinking about the potential - when we've met ONCE.
i didn't get pictures of the corgi sorry
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Sorry if I'm slow with replies I'll get around to it- just need to sit with my thoughts a bit. Or maybe I shouldn't do that