So I have a current mundane probably non issue dilemma, as per usual feel free to ignore it’s largely just me thinking aloud. My partner bought a property and moved near me recently, think I’ve said this before but he’s actually settled in there now rather than it being a hypothetical. The whole thing has felt exciting but weird because it’s very much ‘his’ thing with a view to it eventually being a place we all live together, as in he purposely bought somewhere with way more space than he needs for that reason (I have children so it wouldn’t be for a long while though.) So it’s like I’ve been on the cliched property ‘journey’ with him, looking for flats (I actually found that one), going on viewings, sometimes with him not even there if he couldn’t make it etc, going furniture shopping, cleaning on move in day etc and celebrating with his family after.. so I’ve been there kind of as a support role but all the while knowing it’s not really my thing but one day I could end up there? It’s hard to explain and I’m not doing a very good job
I guess I’m trying to say I’ve been equally as excited and mentally invested as him whilst trying to keep an element of detachment, which has been hard because I loooove housey stuff, I love the flat and I know I’ll probably end up living there one day.
the question is when…we always agreed we’d have a ‘trial period’ first where we keep our individual homes and I’d basically be at his all the times my children weren’t with me. We spend so much time together already but it’s a different kettle of fish actually living under one roof, having one shared space with your combined stuff isn’t it. I’m not risking upending my children’s living situation for something we haven’t kind of had a go at beforehand and he doesn’t want to either. I just feel like in the last couple of weeks he’s had a change of heart. I don’t know, it’s like 50% of the signs are very positive and the other half point the other way. Good signs… he’s asked to see more of my children/said he feels bad he hasn’t seen them more and I know he takes that side of things incredibly seriously. He supposedly told one of my friends it’d feel more settled once I moved in, but she was very drunk and I’m not sure she’s recalling that accurately
he’s said he’ll get me a key cut. Bad signs… Iapologised for said drunk friend coming on a bit full on about me moving in and he totally ignored it, so I made a joky comment to try and prompt a convo about it and he completely changed the subject. I sent him a link to a flat earlier that we were going to rent at one point as it was interesting it was back on the market and he started talking about me renting it by myself, which didn’t feel great. I am just terrible at asking things outright because I’m worried about the answer. I think probably he’s just enjoying having his own place for a bit and isn’t realising it all feels a bit odd and up in the air for me.