So was talking to a friend on the phone about lockdown expection vs reality anyone else feeling like this?
At the start of lock down I was like I need to be positive and think of productive things I can do in the house. I thought "I will make myself a timetable like what mums and dads are doing for their kids. I will make sure I have a good sleeping and eating routine. I'm going to practise my cooking skills, learn more sign language, do at home workouts, write poetry and a journal during this time. I will stay in touch with people as much as possible so I don't feel alone. I will apply for college starting in September and hope lock down is over by then"
One week later - I'm laying in bed all day, scrolling through Facebook, Instagram and Tattle. I am roughly having a five minute panic every hour.
Trying to stay positive yet thinking I won't be here in two weeks and I need to message everyone goodbye it's been nice knowing ya.
My biggest accomplishment's during this time is probably every laugh reaction ive had on here.
I spend hours debating in my head if it's safe to order chips and cheese driving myself mad. I think my legs are gonna seize up from not moving from my bed.
Was so annoyed with myself tonight because I went to tesco for the first time in a week for an unnecessary but felt necessary snack of Jaffa Cakes worrying about who touched the box before me thinking
tit what if I die because I caught corona on my trip to the shops all for some
bleeping Jaffa Cakes. Although 10/10 they were gid. I feel like I'm back on day 0 since I've left the house now and even more convinced that I caught it on my trip out and have two weeks to live.