Second time posting here and so much has happened! First time I was single and thought all men were douchebags!
I'm 36 and honestly never felt my biological clock whatsoever. It's not that I don't like children, I think I do! It's like with adults, some are nice, some not so much.
Whenever I hear children screaming, I think to myself, goodness gracious, how would I cope with a screaming baby/toddler/child/teenager? I honestly don't know.
Almost 2 years ago I met my soulmate (as lame as it sounds
). He's 40 and so ready to be a father. He absolutely loves children and they love him too. We got married last year and we spoke about me not being ready and wanting to spend time just the two of us. Not to sound like a
twit as so many people have suffered due to covid, but there were so many places I wanted us to have gone to, etc. He respects my feelings, but time passes and I don't feel any more prepared to try to get pregnant than I did when I was single.
I feel so bad about it, so conflicted. If we try and I get pregnant, will I love my baby or will I regret it in the future and resent my husband because he wanted it so much? Do I not want to be a mother, period? I have no clue!!!!!
I wish I could see the future and know what to do. Speaking of which, a few years ago, I did palm reading and the palm reader got absolutely everything right so far. She also said I'd have 2 children!!
Any advice, ladies?