I'm a bit late but, she really told on herself in this video with saying her self esteem is tied to having a job and being productive, or "not even like doing the job, but in this age of social media, being seen to be doing something" and "being seen as 'relevant'".Okay, here’s the rant about how she’s having to give up jobs to be a mother and how she feels like she’s waving goodbye to her career (because god forbid you be a working mum??). Had to split it into three because, as I said, it is FIVE minutes long
I bet that's how her marriage works too. Her self esteem is tied up in not necessarily acting having a happy relationship, but being seen to be in a happy relationship.
Also it does feel like she barrelled into marriage and parenthood so fast she's only now processing the consequences and reeling. It's a bit sad. Her tantrum at people asking when she's going back to work clearly means she's feeling overwhelmed.
It's also their life, and I get wanting to start a family, but I still don't understand why you wouldn't at least wait until after your honeymoon to get pregnant. It's like they don't want to enjoy any part of their relationship- like the engagement, or being newlyweds- it all just has to rush along. It still seems to me like they don't actually love each other's company so much, they just want to tick the box of having a marriage and family (and being seen to be having a marriage and family).