Emma- your problem is not that you hold back from being the “youest you”. No-one would care if you were too loud except for the fact that you act like a total DICK. You don’t actually have anything to say that is interesting so you just make up shit and spout whatever inane thought pops into your head. You are like a human volcano that’s on the verge on erupting- an endless spew of your inane thoughts that might at any moment explode into a rage or meltdown or massive sulk.
If this is you holding back from being loud and being you, well, God help us. You hold nothing back- you show everything on the internet - your body, your kids, your home its all endlessly displayed in all its vulgarity with no thought for anyone else just the attention you CONSTANTLY crave. I don;’t think Ive ever seen anyone so DESPERATE for constant validation and attention. You are a 43 year old woman and mother of 2 kids.
Just grow the fuck up, get a grip and stop acting like a total dick - you are going to be a very lonely woman soon if you dont stop cos your kids will hate you, and if you have any friends left they will soon desert you cos you’re so embarrassing to be with.
It’s not clever its not cool, it doesn’t make you a celebrity.
Hope that helps!