I don’t understand the posters either. It’s different if you like a specific painting and can’t find it in print and settle on a gallery poster, or you went to that specific exhibition but random posters? Bar Hockney it didn’t seem like she was familiar with the other two artists either.
I think what Brittany means by commissioning is to ask an emerging or unestablished artist for an original piece. I have a few friends who sell art this way, it can a specific size or colour palette so in a way it is a commission.
Yes, I suspect she only knows Hockney b/c of Dean. But then, who British, does not know about David Hockney? I mean, I doubt she knows much of depth or even really likes his work that much, it's not really her aesthetic (it's a lot more interesting). Dean looks like Hockney too, down to the glasses and posture. I thought that immediately upon seeing him - is this guy trying to look like Hockney or what? Ha! Not that it's a bad look.
Yes, I think she does mean that about "commissioning". I think I find the word pretentious. Why can't she just say, like normal people, I might ask a local artist to paint me something? It's my same cringe with "curation" being used to select and place stuff on a mantle piece. LOL. Commissioning isn't something I see her being happy with anyway. She's a touch o' control freak. Unless it's a portrait - like Dean's work, which doesn't really vary much, you know what you're going to get - your face, or something resembling you slightly, in that style. In my experience work is always better when an artist is given a brief but that's it, the customer then allows them control of the output. This is not for the weak hearted and carries risk. You may well hate it. She's not really the type to be okay with this process in my mind? I can see her being a
head about it.
If you really care as much as she does how something is going to turn out and lack abilities to visualize a head of time (and she does, she is very much a person who has to try it out and then step back and ponder endlessly - think Christmas tree), it would probably be less stressful to go to studios of local artists and shows and get a feel for artists you like and select from finished work or buy vintage. Unless the artist just produces the same type of thing over and over again I suppose that's possible too, but I call that manufacture, not art and you certainly aren't really commissioning something. Working to a certain palette is not what most true artists want to be restricted by either. Young or emerging artists tend to be in the middle of developing their style.
I find her wringing her hands over whether she should continue vlogging disingenuous. She did not start blogging to give people a source of comfort during the pandemic. It just turned out that way. She started vlogging because she thought she could make a living at it, improve her reach, become a successful influencer. And all the way along, she (and other influencers) have been apologizing for not having much to say and blaming the pandemic. Like, I would be more interesting, but, the pandemic.
And now, for her, it's like, my vlog will be different because there is no pandemic and I can't serve my public in the same way. Complain about the pandemic but now complain that your vlog will change. Pull the other one!
It's very obvious to me, that now that the fact that the world might be opening up will require (or it will feel like it will require, particularly from agents) vloggers to make more effort in pursuing creative and unique content. That scares the
tit out of her. Much easier to stay home, order stuff online and do the same thing over and over (including, the aforementioned staple of complaining about lockdown). She is a creature of habit.
And she sort of touches on that, or alludes to her anxiety and the pressure of FOMO and socializing. But I don't think that's at the heart of what's worrying her. This again points back to how, though she can be interesting, she isn't terribly well suited to this. Her controlling nature is the enemy of relatable yet interesting content. She has carved out a fairly distinct style within the minfluencers. But vlogging is more than that, it's more than static pictures. She's not very comfortable in her own skin and trying to present a perfect self comes off as stiff and not terribly likable.
I think she thinks that she is being noble when being "honest" about her anxiety. While I agree she is definitely anxious, she seems either unaware or unwilling to share the sense of dread and nerves and overthinking that are contributing to the procrastination and having a snowball effect of winding her tighter and tighter. If she cannot learn to show people a more human side, a more outward looking side and allow more mess to seem in around the edges, I think it probably would be wise for her to stop. But that's not because it will have changed, it's because she won't have. I don't know if this makes sense at all.
