I often wonder how the aging process will affect her face, body and her style. Having great style can really help one to roll with it and not freak out and try to reverse it with tons of fillers, botox and surgery. But, you do have to adapt and have some self possession. It can be quite a process for many. I'm not sure she is up for being truly honest and relatable in this way. Will she still be wearing giant coats and ugly shoes? I always laugh when people profess they have found their true style as most of the time it's just a version of the current trends and in a few years it's quite different. Brittany does have pretty specific tastes but her confidence is a bit wobbly. It is rare that someone stays fairly consistent through their life. Those folks tend to be way more original and trailblazers more than influencers. I think of Vivienne Westwood, Zandra Rhodes, Iris Arpel, Helen Mirren, Carine Roitfeld ...All very different but comfortable in their own skin. I've noticed her being unprepared and apologizing more than normal. A lot of times the apologizing is her projecting her own annoyance. For example, we can't hear the neighbors washing machine or see the solicitor's office across the street, or hear a car alarm but it's clear that she is really bothered by it so this is her way of expressing that. I have noticed that this is happening more since she split with Dean. It's disingenuous and self conscious too. I prefer, for example, Lizzy saying something's really annoying her or saying "just go away or shut up". It seems like a little thing, but it's telling of her insecurities right now. I can't get my words out, sorry, thought I was seeing something in the mirror etc. She should really cut back on that and edit or just be honest about it instead of couching it in "I'm so sorry for you having to listen to it" say it's bloody f'ing annoying. That would be funny (in small doses). Also, if you don't know where you got something, what size it is, or if it's still available, go found out quickly and then film. It just adds to the mumble mumble blather. Not sure what size this is, where I got it, if it's available, how to pronounce, oh, sorry, I've got a bit of a phobia about... sleep anxiety etc. Oh sorry for being sorry. I know I do it. Oh I'm prattling on. Then try to stop doing it. For crying out loud. LOL. Plus, the power of you not being live is you can actually edit that out (or most of it). Occasionally it's totally fine and human, even endearing, but with her it's become a crutch and hyperbolic whinge. I didn't get much sleep last night with all that's going on becomes "I have sleep anxiety". Trust me, I'm anxious too. I don't mind revealing that but once a vlog is enough. If I'm doing a presentation to a bunch of people I try to suck it up and sound like I know what I'm talking about and not prattle on about how nervous I am (even though I may be). People aren't terribly interested in your neuroses beyond a point. Preparation helps. I found this latest video a bit phoning it in. Oh, I think I told you I was going to talk about outfits, so this is a sweater and some pants etc. Not very inspired or considered. The running thing might actually be interesting. Don't worry so much Brittany, you don't have to explain and if people find it boring f 'em. Having a little enthusiasm and less whining would be good. The books are always interesting, except she tries to pontificate when she is out of depth. I can't believe she didn't know that clip book lights didn't exist. What? But that does look like a nice one. Overall this latest vlog is way better than the beauty haul (isn't saying a lot). Ah well, upwards a little bit. Hope it continues...
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my granny eyes would be very grateful
That said, I feel for her, probably because I haven't known her like you and the bullying she used to perpetrate. That would probably make me loathe to empathize. I do think it's a struggle right now to have a life. But there are things she could do. Maybe she has more severe depression that we realize. I'm trying to be kind. Objectively though, it is exactly as you say. It's almost as if she prides herself on the vlogs being 45 mins long. And I don't mind a 45 minute vlog at all if it's edited. But just as with writing, if you are going to get paid for something, put out your best not stream of consciousness. You're not Proust Brittany (neither am I, apparently, LOL). In my defense, I will say, I expect no one to listen or read me 
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what has this world come to ?