Last year I went through the breakup of a long term relationship (yes Beckie more than 6 months) and the death of a family member. It was obviously harrowing, so on one hand I do feel empathy for her pain.
But not for the life of me would I ever consider posting on the internet like this and absolutely wallowing in pity and misery. Deleting myself from social media. Coming back to post emo art.
I have on many occasions cried for lengthy periods of time. Crying is healthy and healing and I try to dedicate time to it (lol). What I have not done is mentioned those times casually/deliberately in a post about my cat
to strangers who have a parasocial relationship with me.
It never crossed my mind to think ‘I’m disposable waaaa’ let alone make a crappy painting about, LET ALONE publicaly post it like a preteen.
This girl has the resilience of a very small child. What surprises me is that she still calls herself Christian. One major draw of religion is the comfort it offers to this kind of universal human suffering, and providing this sense of resilience. Interesting she only mentions Christianity to gesture that she’s special or deep or has access to a bunch of potential husbands
What I have done is lots of self reflection, writing, thinking, mourning, letting go of my ego and past expectations. Taking responsibility for my faults, keeping it cordial with my ex. Focused on where I want to be and work towards it. Develop in my job and skill set. Strengthened friendships and family relationships, processed my pain with people who care.
Beckie pull yourself together. You’re worthy of love and life and good things. But this suffering is majorly self inflicted. You think you’re so special that normal rules of responsibility and agency don’t apply but they do. There is all sorts of pain in peoples lives, you’re not unique. Only YOU have the power to handle it and fix your life despite of it.
But not for the life of me would I ever consider posting on the internet like this and absolutely wallowing in pity and misery. Deleting myself from social media. Coming back to post emo art.
I have on many occasions cried for lengthy periods of time. Crying is healthy and healing and I try to dedicate time to it (lol). What I have not done is mentioned those times casually/deliberately in a post about my cat
to strangers who have a parasocial relationship with me.It never crossed my mind to think ‘I’m disposable waaaa’ let alone make a crappy painting about, LET ALONE publicaly post it like a preteen.
This girl has the resilience of a very small child. What surprises me is that she still calls herself Christian. One major draw of religion is the comfort it offers to this kind of universal human suffering, and providing this sense of resilience. Interesting she only mentions Christianity to gesture that she’s special or deep or has access to a bunch of potential husbands
What I have done is lots of self reflection, writing, thinking, mourning, letting go of my ego and past expectations. Taking responsibility for my faults, keeping it cordial with my ex. Focused on where I want to be and work towards it. Develop in my job and skill set. Strengthened friendships and family relationships, processed my pain with people who care.
Beckie pull yourself together. You’re worthy of love and life and good things. But this suffering is majorly self inflicted. You think you’re so special that normal rules of responsibility and agency don’t apply but they do. There is all sorts of pain in peoples lives, you’re not unique. Only YOU have the power to handle it and fix your life despite of it.
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