Ugh god I've followed Beckie since she was beckie0, maybe 2010? A really long time. She's always been a narcissist, chronic attention seeker, black and white thinking, utterly self obsessed. Not for a minute did I think she was autistic, I have always thought she had BPD. Her concept of herself is heavily weighted on her relationships. I really hope she doesn't have kids too. I don't think she's a 'bad' person but she would quite easily be a toxic parent. I remember she could never take any criticism on her youtube videos and was prone to gaslighting others.