I’m reluctant to say that Ash hasn’t got feelings of trauma because what one person can handle, another can’t, there’s no text book for ‘trauma’ however… the fact that she was ‘excited’ to get her birth notes and wanted to sit down with a nice cuppa to read them, maybe even do it over a podcast says to me that while she had a traumatic/tricky birth is not what we generally consider ‘birth trauma’. A bit like people throw around the term OCD or even ‘depressed’.
She expected a pain free birth, it didn’t go that way, she felt horrific and was unprepared for that so it was a traumatic experience but ultimately it was a fairly straightforward, intervention free birth that side swiped her. Her naivety is to blame, not incorrect procedures, poor care, a baby in distress, fear of death, fear in general, massive physical injury or intervention etc that would cause the PTSD associated with birth trauma.
(Her latest claim - she thought she was going to die. She’s been reading up to ensure she says the right things to validate it me thinks)
I’m inclined to believe she had a hard time after the birth with the consequences of her tearing and has built that into the birth looking for someone to blame.
BTW Ash, no one says this, no one. If anything people think you’re still an idiot child at 25 and don’t give you the opportunities afforded to the more experienced.