In my teens, I had to learn to love myself, my culture and my religion. All throughout my life, I was the "white washed" friend, the friend everyone accepted because I wasn't like the other black, middle eastern, asian people etc. I was not proud to be a second generation here in the UK, I would never like my dad coming to my school on parents evening because I knew as soon as he spoke, people would know we weren't like them. I lived in a very middle class area, my dad did very well for himself especially after coming to this country from nothing. And yet he still speaks broken English even though he has the intellect to learn it properly. He still speaks with an accent, even though he can switch it in the blink of an eye. I would go out of my way to speak for him so he didn't have to, not taking in to account how he might feel. All these things from my childhood came back to haunt me as I grew up and more aware of racism.
I joined twitter in 2011, I was 13. It was my first social media back account then and ever since, It has opened my eyes to all the injustice in the world. Now I walk proudly with my head held high when I speak my 4 home languages in the streets. Now, I let my dad speak. Now, I speak back to him in his first language and IM the one who's struggling and stuttering and never once has he laughed, never once has he spoken over me.
Even though, I am a POC, I was very sheltered growing up. I had to learn about reverse racism, subtle racism, institutionalised racism etc and try to be the change I wanted to see. I have very ambiguous features and tanned skin. I get different ethnicities everyday. But the question I always get is "Where are you from?" I will always reply the UK. But you can guess, the person is never happy with that answer. The question is always asked again but in a different way such as "Where are your parents from?" or a "You know, where are you REALLY from?" . This is subtle racism. You can ask about a persons heritage and culture without implying they are not from where you thought they would be from.
I like to think I'm advocating for people in my daily life. I like to think I challenge people when they say questionable things. I like to think I surround myself with people who educated on the matter and understand their privilege. I like to think my generation will be the change we want to see, Twitter certainly gives me hope for this. If a protest is happening in my city, I will be there in full PPE. Enough is enough. We need to stand together as one. This treatment of black people cannot go on like this, it is inhumane and seeing the way many police officers are responding to these protests only highlights how much power they wield. Why are the American police given so much weaponry? Why do they have so much power in their hands that they have tear gas, tasers, guns, tanks, shields, etc all at their disposal? Yet Doctors/Nurses on the front line fighting Covid cant even get proper face masks never mind full PPE? The fact that these police officers are driving in to crowds of people with NO fear shows how they think they can get away with this BECAUSE THEY HAVE GOT AWAY WITH WORSE BEFORE.
It fills me with hope that people are educating themselves. I'm thankful I'm surrounded by friends who understand their white privilege and are one of the first to voice their outrage both in real life and on their social media platforms.
Seems all my posts on this website turn into essays. I ramble way too much!